ahsumgurl909 Posted January 30, 2007 Posted January 30, 2007 Yesterday after noon after returning from the hospital to find he lied to me and still had the monster there. I left without them seeing me and never said a word. Got home listen to my answer machine. He said "Dont bother coming u took to long so I called my mother. Take my clothes and stick them where the sun dont shine. Dont bother me ever again I dont want you and I dont need you." My phone rings at around 4:30 and it is him and he says. "Listen can you please come and get me at my moms?" I said "sure Ill be there in 15 minutes." While driving there I figured the mom wouldnt let him leave with the Monster so he went home with his mom. And proceeded to call me to come get him because the monster lives a couple of blocks from me, I figure he was going to have me pick him up and then have her come and get him but I didnt care at this point. So when I picked him up he had his paper work with him and some medication. I said to him "So where am I taking you." He said "To your house where do you think?" I said "Look if you are going to have her come once I get you there just tell me and save the drama. Cause at this point it dont even matter." He said "Im not going to do that I told you before I went into the operating room to not trip that you would see in the end where I will be." And that is where I want to be with you. I just had to get rid of her she was giving me a hard time and I just wanted to keep the peace." When we arrived at my house I got him settled and we began to talk while lying on my bed and I stated to explain to him how terrible I felt about everything and seeing him like that just really scared me etc. He began to weep very hard and I was scared it was going to hurt him so I just told him I forgave him already there was no need to feel bad. He wept and wept while I consoled him and tried to make him feel better. We went for a walk and he didnt look to good got him into bed and rubbed his back and he fell asleep at 11:00 he wakes me up in pain I take him to his moms to get some pain medication cuz his wasnt filled yet. While we are there the phone rings and he answers and its her. He was in his room and I was talking with his mom. This moring we go to hospital to get medication filled, he yells at me in front of everyone in the waiting room and outside of the hospital. I tell him I will just pay for his Meds instead of waiting for him to see the Dr. To many people there and I had other obligations. So we leave I get home call Rite Aid and proceed to leave to get his meds when I walk outside he is there with her outside my home. I turn around and lock the door and her comes pounding on it. "Give me my pills and paper worK!!." I ignore him. He calls me and tells me he wants his stuff I dont answer. He says hes coming back here I leave. I drove around for a while and then come back hes there with her and says give me my meds I say get in my car and I will, he wont. They drive off I follow. She pulls over I pull over they call the cops. I end up throwing is **** out the window and leave. I go get my roommate at work and find two bottles of meds fell out and called his cell to let him know I was dropping off at his moms I do and thats that. I am not even hurt I am not even crying . I am not doing anything but I feel like Im dying. Thats it Im done I will not put myself through anymore of his crap. (Takes a deep breath) Sigh* What a ride. A ride from HELL. I guess what I feel is thats what hell must be like. Going through this has taking a toll on me I feel Like Im going to collapse.
Curmudgeon Posted January 30, 2007 Posted January 30, 2007 Update for those who want to know. Not what I hoped to hear.
whichwayisup Posted January 30, 2007 Posted January 30, 2007 Going through this has taking a toll on me I feel Like Im going to collapse Unfortunately, you're allowing it to happen this way. Yesterday after noon after returning from the hospital to find he lied to me and still had the monster there. I left without them seeing me and never said a word. Got home listen to my answer machine. He said "Dont bother coming u took to long so I called my mother. Take my clothes and stick them where the sun dont shine. Dont bother me ever again I dont want you and I dont need you." Wish right then and there you ended it. But, then this: My phone rings at around 4:30 and it is him and he says. "Listen can you please come and get me at my moms?" I said "sure Ill be there in 15 minutes." And you go running off to rescue him. HE IS A F**K'N LIAR, A USER, and he has NO RESPECT for you. None! Please, wake up and get your head out of the sand. Can you not see this man for who he is??? Yes, you love him, but really, take a step back and ask yourself what you REALLY LOVE about him?? He's an idiot. You know this, and you keep on letting him reel you in over and over and over again. What has to happen so you see that he isn't worth fighting over or for? Let the monster have him. Let his own immediate family look after him. Say goodbye and MOVE ON. If you don't change your reactions and how you handle him, (meaning you break up with him for good) then you'll forever be his puppet on his string.
Author ahsumgurl909 Posted January 30, 2007 Author Posted January 30, 2007 Look back. I know that I know that I know its over. My heart isnt broken, I havent cried I tear. I feel complete relief. Seriously I thought this would never ever be able to happen where I just wouldnt care. While he was here last night I was wishing he was gone. When that feeling came over me I knew that I didnt love him anymore. The damage was done when he put that girl in the picture. Once I had him here and knew he wanted to be here I just didnt feel the same. How could I after what he did to me during this very tragic time in our relationship. I am glad its over and I mean that. Thanks to all of you WWIU. Thank you for all your encouragement and wise advice. And for sticking around for the long haul your very kind. A Curm u too and all the others as well. LS has saved me so many times. I am grateful for this site!!
whichwayisup Posted January 30, 2007 Posted January 30, 2007 I am happy to hear this, and yeah you may have some sad moments, but you're gonna be fine. I'm sure in afew weeks you will look back and see things in a much more clear mind, you'll feel even better! You're welcome and get some sleep tonight! No crying tonight, k!
Art_Critic Posted January 30, 2007 Posted January 30, 2007 It is only over till he calls you tomorrow and asks you to come over.. You need to take control of this situation and put an end to the drama.. Try not to take his calls anymore.. If he calls tell him to leave you alone and when he says he needs you tell him to ask his family for help that you cannot give him anymore help.. Stay Clean
Curmudgeon Posted January 30, 2007 Posted January 30, 2007 I know that I know that I know its over. QUOTE] I hope so! That's as it should be!
Star Gazer Posted January 30, 2007 Posted January 30, 2007 Your quote was actually written by Cat Stevens.
Author ahsumgurl909 Posted January 30, 2007 Author Posted January 30, 2007 Art Critic You are one smart cookie. And I admire your straight forwardness. And I hope for my sake that I will not pick that phone up. Im staying clean I have no desire to pick up again. After seeing what meth did to him first hand Im done. I just hope my heart isnt like that. But I am pretty sure it is. Just hope i get killed in a freak accident before I have a heart attack. I refuse to have myself checked for fear they will find blockage and dead parts on my heart like his. I have used drugs since I was 11 smoke rock coccaine then and for many years after that til I met meth and then I have been on that since. But not now.
Author ahsumgurl909 Posted January 30, 2007 Author Posted January 30, 2007 He wrote it for Rod Stewart or what? Your quote was actually written by Cat Stevens.
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