Guest Posted January 29, 2007 Posted January 29, 2007 i was on my way back from work, he was at home sick coz he had just been operated on a couple of days ago. He asked if i could get him a kebab, i said i would. The store was closed so i bought some kebab meat from the supermarket and gave him a call to tell him. He was quite and moody. I asked him if he could turn the stove on so i could get home and fry the meat quicker, he yelled that it was fair he wasnt doing nething he was ill and he hadnt had any rest. I said fine, i was just asking its ur meat neways. He yelled again, then i dont want it! throw it away! I walked home trying to figure out whether i should avoid a fight. I was tired and it was friday so i decided i wouldnt say nething at all and just leave him alone. I went into the house, put some of the groceries away and started having a shower. The washing machine was on but it was empty, i asked him why. No answer, suddenly i hear my name being yelled. I thought no way am i answering if hes gonna talk to me like that. Got back in the shower. Next thing i know he walks in and whines u could at least have asked me if i wanted a glass of water. I replied i wasnt gonna ask him nething if he was going to yell at me. Then it started. He started to calmly chuck dirty laundry in the bath tub. I said nothing. He started opening bags of meat and chips and spread everything all over the floor and the bathroom. Threw cookies and my boots in the bathtub. I was still in there mind you, staring silently, wondering if he was going to hurt me. I realized i had to do something, i couldnt just wait for him to calm down and apologize and then all would be fine. I tried calling the police and it was engaged, he grabbed the phone off me and tried to smash it, he also tried to smash a bathroom tile with a shower head and he punched the washing machine door. I called his boss with my cell phone, he threw coke in the room, on the sheets and said im out of your life. i sat there, naked still and said of course u are, what is wrong with u? why? why?i dont understand, what can have happened to u that u believe u can act this way? that was the last time i saw him. His boss helped me clean up and took me to the train station so i could go to my cousins. I was in shock, i still am. He was my first love, my best friend, he acted like he adored me, with him i let myself go, i felt free and loved and pampered. Unfortunately there were also times when i felt anxious and scared, i was never safe, not completely. Still it hurts, i keep having flash backs of the night before the fight when he sat in front of the computer listening to salsa and dancing,when he cuddled into me before he fell asleep and said he loved me so much, when we laughed and i took care of him because he was in pain. I remember how i watched him sleeping and thought he looked so sweet. I just want to know that other people have had to let go of a relationship despite feeling that the person loves u but has too many emotional isues. I want to know im not the only one that can still have feelings for someone that treated me like that.
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