hopeto Posted January 25, 2007 Posted January 25, 2007 I am lost!!!! please I need response and I know it is long but please. My husband an I are getting a divorce and I am lost. I know what he done was so wrong and really he is not sorry for it. I feel like if he was he would go get help. I feel like dying!!! I feel bleak and lost!! I DONT WANT THIS DIVORCE!! I love him. Problem is he hates me. I dont know why, when or how it happened but he hates me!! I have loved him form the start and have delt with him not loving me and putting his family befor me and alot of things but I love him. I just wish we could just pack up and move somewhere it was just me, him and our daughter and start over. Is it normal to feel like not want to go on and to just forget that I even exzist?? I dont want to live a life without him. he is my world and my soul mate!! he just does not know how to love and he does not care. he is as cold as ice. he is ot affected by this at all. I asked him one simple question, it was why do you act like it is effecting you know. cause he did look like the other day it was bothering him the other day so he said well his whole life was fixing to change. it was losing our home and having to move in with his parents (which his step mom was, you need to leave him and I would make him have supervised visitations until he got help so on and so forth) but when I turn around I feel like she is stabbing me and I dont understand why. He also said that he was fixing to live without his daughter. it was never that he was going to have to live without me and that he was losing his marrage for the piroty he has. he says my piroty is my animals and it is not. but his piroty is him. all about him. I am crying no stop and I just want to walk up to him and just huge him just to feel his arms around me even if it is for the last time. no matter what I say to him on how much I love him it does not matter. he does not care about what our daughter will go through or me. he is done. I have changed for him more than once, almost hurt myself trying to loose weight and having emg. surgy on my gal blatter from loosing so much weight at once on diet pills that will later on effect me. I have chosen him over family that was lost(my neice) that no one wanted. she was a lost child and we took her to raise and she was 9 going on 10 and he made me make her move when she was turning 14. the list goes on and on. I dont care what when or how I still love him and I cant breath. we were married for 15yrs and together for 18. I love him and it does not matter. has anyone had a thing like this and the husband woke up and relized that what he has and came back??? I am grasping at straws and I know I cant make him love me but GOSHHHHH I am hurting so much. I feel like if we had a new start and had some help we could make it but he hates me. alot of it was we were so stressed from having our own company and he was always stressed and so was I. I have gone to the attonery and started the divorce but have to have more money to get it going. I love him. I love him I love him. I just wished he could love me. I dont want to live life without him, but he hates me.
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