Guest Posted January 23, 2007 Posted January 23, 2007 I love my boyfriend more than anything!!! We have been together 2 years and live together. Lately i have noticed that I am not the best girlfriend, but he says i am. I dont cook, i dont give him massages or rub him (Sometimes i rub his feet, like once a week maybe), i dont show enthuisastic support for his work or his band...I show support, but never excitedly. I never initiate sex...and when i have it is totally pathetic like "Wanna go do it" intead of showing him physically. He cooks, he rubs me all the time, he ALWAYS initiates sex with me, always tells me he loves me and how great he thinks i look and how or why I am so great, he has never said no to sex. (I always say no to sex...he tries all the time). You get the point. But i do do other things...I clean, I tell him I love him all the time, I am affectionate and help him whenever I can (financially or whatever he needs at the time). Lately too i feel as though my RETARDED insecurities are attacking us. Like today he called me all happy. Told me we had to "do something couples do" like go bowling or something and he was generally being cute. Me: I was feeling insecure about NOTHING!!! Basically i was thinking all these what if's about this girl who came to a football game party who he hardly talked to and in my head i am saying "what if they contact eachother on myspace etc etc etc." Anyway, so he can hear the stress in my tone and of course rightfully his mood goes south pretty quickly because he kept asking what was wrong and i said the classic answer of "nothing." I know I just need to change me actions. I am just so NEGATIVE!!!! In my head i am like "what if i start trying harder and he leaves me" basically thinking i will jinx us. I know, it's craziness because i love him tons and he shows me and tells me all the time how much he loves me. It's like I finally found the right one and I am so scared to lose him I am going nuts. Advice? Opinions?
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