Author Marielle Posted January 18, 2007 Author Posted January 18, 2007 marielle, i am feeling the physical and mental pain of my R with MM as well. i can not eat, i am stressed constantly, i went to the doctor and have started antidepressant medicine, and now i am seeing a therapist. all because i am in love with a MM who says he wants to be with me but doesnt want to leave his family. i am thinking about dating a SG, but it will be extremely hard for me to do with the feelings i have for MM. i am glad that you have been able to at least make the first step to free yourself from such a destructive R. it will not be easy, it never is when there are such strong feelings involved. SAme here SAd, I am on antidepressant, and antianxiety....why do we have to go through all this s****?????!!!!! I am mad at myself for all the tiem wasted, for being stupid, and still love him like crazy! I saw him for coffee, he seemed really sad, but respected my decision, just said that I really took the worst decision because he was building a life with me (this time I rolled my eyes), and seemed very depressed. he did not make me any promise, rather played the marthyr, and he said he still wanted to be in my life, I said I could not be his friend. He said he was willing to take any scrap from me, just to be in my life (I felt like saying: well, that's what i ve been doing the last 2 yrs, lol) but honestly didn t feel like being so mean. I had an interesting conversation with someone who knows about my story, and said something that hit me: maybe you did never go completely NC, because you know this R has no future and u have lost respect for it, so your just dragging it till it dies. I felt it was true in a way But at least he's not contacting me or anything....playing the victim. WE DESERVE A BETTER LIFE
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