coco_milkshake Posted January 6, 2007 Posted January 6, 2007 Ugh I cant believe Im posting about him again but I need to get this anger out of me. Every time I ask myself what I saw in him I can never find an answer. It was a year yesterday and I handled it well but Im suffering a total setback now. I know I shouldnt be thinking about him because he is not worth it but I find it unbelieveable as to how he managed to play with my emotions and I wonder if he felt any guilt... In my last thread I mentioned that he said lies that would make you cringe. This is a taster: When we worked together he told me that he wanted to go out with this girl that he liked - he went to high school with her and she is 2 years younger than me (one year older than him) and that he had liked her for 4 years. During this time we flirted a lot at work and I began to like him so I was taken back when he mentioned it. This was Dec 05. Despite liking him I wished him luck as he was going to ask her out at a party she was holding at her house just before Hogmany. He asked her out and she said yes and I tried to be happy for them despite liking him too. To my surprise their relationship lasted only 6 days and he forwarded me a text she had sent him, dumping him while being on holiday in Ireland. He had said that he was happy with her and all so I was a bit shocked. He then told me that the truth was that she treated him like rubbish - went as far as telling me that she beat the living daylights out fo him with a belt in her bedroom and not in a kinky way either. I was hurt and angry for him. I had no reason to believe he would lie. Even during our relationship he said that she was sending expicit pictures of herself to his phone but when I asked to see he said he had deleted them. A month after our relationship was over I went into his hotmail account. In his sent items I found an email addressed to her asking for help. Curious, I read it and to my horror he had not seen her in months. He told her everything that happened between me and him and he lied so much in it, making himself out to be the victim and me the bitch. My family did not approve I aint denying that but they put me through hell not him and he said that they smashed his house windows and phoned his house frequently issuing death threats. Didnt even spare his 9 yr old brother either saying that when he answered the phone my family threatened to stab him. I had tears streaming down my face as I read this. He then said that that he ran away from home to escape the threats but still attended school - I saw right through that and knew it was a lie. I got told he was a liar and for the first time I saw proof with my own eyes. He called her a star for listening and wished her a good summer. The same girl who apparently beat him senseless with a belt - it didnt make sense. Then a couple of months after that I accidently find this girl on Bebo (like Myspace) and discover she has been dating this other guy for over a year - meaning her and my ex never dated to begin with. That was a huge blow and I felt like a total idiot. I pictured my family's taunts. From that moment onwards I told myself I wouldnt get sucked into his lies again. The fact that he was stupid enough to save that email...and the confusion as well that I felt as he has kept all the emails I have sent him. I just dont know what to do - Im sitting here sick with the cold and he enters my mind...grrr
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