coco_milkshake Posted January 4, 2007 Posted January 4, 2007 On the 5th it would have been a year since me and my ex had been dating - time sure does fly. I keep going back to that time when I asked him out and how happy I got when he said yes. Fast forward a year later and I feel like he was the biggest mistake of my life yet I still find myself thinking about him sometimes. He hurt me so much and his lies and betrayal had left me completely broken. Why is it then that I am not 100% over him? He was my first boyfriend and he treated me so badly after our break up and I should be hating him and I do but a part of me doesnt want to. I have dreamed about him for the past 3 nights and in one of them I was getting intimate with him and I woke up angry and annoyed with myself that he isnt totally out of my life. Nine months after the split and I can still feel his presence in my life and its driving me up the wall I regret looking at his friend's homepage where it had the pictures of them both at the prom together and it just broke my heart because he was telling me she wanted to get with him despite us dating - why even tell me that?? The lies he told me is enough to make anyone cringe - I felt like an idiot afterwards to believe him, I loved him so much I had no reason to believe he had to resort to lying to keep me with him only for him to break my heart 2 days after my birthday, spread vicious lies about me at work and laugh at my expense. I wish I could forget and I was making great progress but now that I have realised that its been a year those old wounds have become fresh again and the pain is horrible. I still wonder why he did what he did to me and I cant figure him out - just when I feel like I have he leaves my head spinning. I truly loved him and I was loyal and faithful to him, I hate myself for falling for an idiot
Pyro Posted January 4, 2007 Posted January 4, 2007 They always say that getting over your first love is the most difficult. I also think that being its the anniversary also plays a part on why you are hurt right now. Just keep remembering how bad he treated you and keep telling yourself that you deserve better than that and that is why you are single, to find the better treatment. You may want to resist from looking at friends homepages or anything else that would remind you of him.
LaughMachine Posted January 5, 2007 Posted January 5, 2007 A year? thats all? Don't sweat it! not abnormal at all that your still at this point struggling to get over him. Yes he is your first love, and I know the pain that you feel. I especially can sympathsize with those dang old dreams of yours. They just come out of no where and smack you in the face. This guy will get his in time you are probaly still young like me and you probaly haven't explored much out of this struggle in your life if that makes sense. Time time time will help and allowing your self to quit looking at this homepage would also help. Though I would be a hypocrit to tell you to stop. I don't meen to talk about my self but It's been a year and 5 months for me and yes time does fly by doesn't it? But even though I'm not fully over my ex doesn't meen I'm not happy, or you can't be happy. Beating your self up over it like looking at the homepage will only hurt you. You will be at a point eventually and gradually getting over your ex. Time does go by super face and if you don't think of time too much it will go by even faster for you to heal
intopieces Posted January 5, 2007 Posted January 5, 2007 I feel your pain. My relationship has been over for a little over a month and Im still in pain. I'm getting better though by the day. At least you know the guy was no good for you, I'm still lost and confused bout what happened to me. I pray that in time you get better and can move on to something else.
LaughMachine Posted January 6, 2007 Posted January 6, 2007 Okay not being a b*tch but you just said been a month and your still in pain? lol you make a month sound like the perfect amount of time to get over someone? Of course your will still be in pain after a month. Many will be in pain for the next year or next year..But I guess you usually get over people quick? Psh a month people think thats long? your crazy lol
Pyro Posted January 6, 2007 Posted January 6, 2007 Okay not being a b*tch but you just said been a month and your still in pain? lol you make a month sound like the perfect amount of time to get over someone? Of course your will still be in pain after a month. Many will be in pain for the next year or next year..But I guess you usually get over people quick? Psh a month people think thats long? your crazy lol I agree. It does take well over a month to get over someone. Honestly though, I was able to get over my ex in less than a month, but that was because she had cheated on me and we attempted to reconcile and go through councilling, but I could tell that she didn't try as hard as I did to work things out, so I was already prepeared for the break-up, plus she cheated on me, so she automatically stooped down a level to me. My point is, I was pretty much expecting the break-up to occur.
LaughMachine Posted January 7, 2007 Posted January 7, 2007 Dang a month??? well thats awsome than if you can get over someone that quick! Not to sabtagose this post but I've been playing guitar riddler and got the chords to one of my fav songs and finally play it right. Maybe when I get better I can call you and play hahaha
Teacher's Pet Posted January 7, 2007 Posted January 7, 2007 Oooh... can I jump in on bass? -tp plays like a chubby Jason Newsted
primed7 Posted January 7, 2007 Posted January 7, 2007 Just to add that one year is not a very long time, especially when someone hurts you so much. It has taken me 2.5years(yes quite long) but I'm so happy to be finally over my ex now. So hold ok. Some days you'll feel better, other days it'll seem like it'll never go away, but you'll get there. Take care
Pyro Posted January 7, 2007 Posted January 7, 2007 Dang a month??? well thats awsome than if you can get over someone that quick! Not to sabtagose this post but I've been playing guitar riddler and got the chords to one of my fav songs and finally play it right. Maybe when I get better I can call you and play hahaha Like I said, I was pretty much expecting it to occur. Thats cool. I am always up to hear a song.
LaughMachine Posted January 7, 2007 Posted January 7, 2007 Just to add that one year is not a very long time, especially when someone hurts you so much. It has taken me 2.5years(yes quite long) but I'm so happy to be finally over my ex now. So hold ok. Some days you'll feel better, other days it'll seem like it'll never go away, but you'll get there. Take care Thank you!!!!!!! A year is not even a long time. Yet alone a month, but hey whatever floats your boat. Pain lasts a long time and 2.5 years, maybe that is a good enough time !. I think after a year and 5 months, the pain still lingers but your defiently on your feet again. So time will always be on everyones side, sometimes it feels like forever though..
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