smoochie Posted January 1, 2007 Posted January 1, 2007 Hi all, I am feeling really good about myself and where I am now. I just had a birthday and to celebrate, I took alot of pictures in different costumes/outfits. They all came out really pretty and sexy. I gave them out as Christmas gifts to everyone. I sent pics of my kids and I having fun in different places. I sent pics of me at parties with friends...it was really great. These pictures scream "my life is not over...I am not sitting around waiting for any of you guys...I look good...I feel good"!!! I even sent Christmas picture messages with to everyone's cell phone(ex's included). However, I sent them out to two ex so's along with personalized letters to each of them. I honestly explained why I was thinking of him and what made me include them in my sharing of the pictures. I know some parts of the letter came across mean but I don't really care about that. I got to do it on MY terms. Just factual stuff about them that only a good woman would tell them about themselves and how I realized nothing would ever change for them IMHO and that I was doing ok...with pictures to boot!! One of them hates me so I know he didn't find it as amusing as I did. And the other one will always have some feelings for me so he might be a little pissed off about the pictures and me dating new guys. He's the type that thinks he should always be the only one for you, even if he doesn't want you himself. A true narcisst. They can throw it away before they read it or wipe their butts with my pictures...doesn't matter cause I have come a long way and did what I wanted to do. It was empowering. And I gotta tell you guys for the 100th time...IT FEELS SO GOOD!!! I am in the best place I have been emotionally in years. And this time, the communication was intiated by me/for me not to get reconnected but to break free and be proud of myself. I WANTED them to know how good I am doing and where I am mentally/emotionally. I wanted to go out like this...the last contact or information they have about me is what I want them to know. On my terms, seeing and hearing about me doing my best. Looking extremely gorgeous and fine. That I am happy. :) Someone said living well is the best revenge. Well they got a taste of my living well and happiness. So for my original question...is this considered coping?
dropdeadlegs Posted January 1, 2007 Posted January 1, 2007 Why not? Coping has many stages and I think you are about to be delivered from them! Happy New Year! You are ready for it!!
Author smoochie Posted January 2, 2007 Author Posted January 2, 2007 I sure hope it is. I feel really strange. Maybe because I haven't felt this positive and not lovesick in so long that I don't know how to categorize this. As much as I love where I am in life, it has an unfamiliar feeling to it????? I can't help but wonder how my letters played out with them. I would love to know how one in particular is doing...I know the other ex is ok. What do you guys think? Do you think if you received pics from an ex and they are doing well it would make you regret YET AGAIN how much you blew it with them? In my case, I doubt it but just want to get some reaction from you guys!
Teacher's Pet Posted January 2, 2007 Posted January 2, 2007 I took alot of pictures in different costumes/outfits. They all came out really pretty and sexy...is this considered coping? Welcome to LS, Smoochie. To give a true and honest assessment of your situation, I'd need to see those pictures. -tp LS Welcome Committee
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