pureinheart Posted December 29, 2006 Posted December 29, 2006 I could use advice, encouragement, understanding as to why this has affected me like this. There are no intentions to offend anyone, my anger is directed at the situation and not any of you..... First, I could care less what ex-MM's "family" thinks about me, their opinions are based on their own twisted thinking....an old supervisor referred to ex-MM and family as parasites....he was so right. One of the high level managers, one day at work, came up to me and ex-MM and said, "why do you hang out with this guy, he really makes you look bad, he's a loser." Everyone at work loathed the EA, they liked me because I had known them all for years, but hated MM because they knew how he was....so many people tried to warn me about not only him, but family too. It was bad enouph to come to the understanding that this guy played me good and I was stupid and nieve enouph to fall for it, but to have his degenerate family come after me the way they did....I just can't handle it....especially after already calling it off months prior.... My daughter was the one that pulled up the myspace page that they had me on, trying to threaten my job, she just happened to be on the phone with her sister-in-law who has a VERY big family and knows everyone around here and none of them are very happy about this (that is putting it mildly)....also because these idiots implicated the job, which MM is in the same industry...they just made their dads name complete mud (no offence puddle)....it's a large town, but small at the same time...word gets around quick. I feel so depressed, and got very sick behind all of this recent crap, having been through enough heartache and dehumanization already and now having salt rubbed in a very large wound.... Having good reason to believe that ex-MM left my emails up on the pc for his wife to find. The emails were asking him to leave me alone....why did he do that? To get back at me? He knows how they are and he baited them. Does this guy hate me that much for wanting to do the right thing by me....can anyone be that selfish? It's hard to believe that anyone could be this cold hearted....he was killing me slowly and I told him that and he didn't care...I told him I was vulnerable, but that was no news, he knew it and played on it and continued to chase....OMG what did I do to myself????????
Guest Posted December 29, 2006 Posted December 29, 2006 i know how it feels to feel frustrated. in my case, all i have been trying to do is the right thing for two people and in the process show kindness and understanding. i really don't know how that effort of honesty and awareness and tolerance has helped or made things worse. i am man of forgiveness and accecptance greater than anyone i know. i have let someone snoop, slander, and steal, falsify and defame, and injure and obsess - i have understood, and supported as a friend and a lover, and i have in the past been angered but i no longer go there. i am calm and caring and have respect and direction and i have done all of this with just one person, in my entire life - i don't know if she gets the point that that is what's special - that we can go thru levels only with each other this way. there is no-one else i will ever experience this with and it has been a grand adventure and right now what is important is that she is happy, safe and healthy. and any way i can contribute to that is all i've ever offered and i've done so because she is worth it and i don't care if she doesn't like me saying that or understand why - poo poo on u boo boo - tough luck that u bumped into someone like me that sees you as a person - curses!
GreenEyedLady Posted December 29, 2006 Posted December 29, 2006 This is awful that you have to go through this...you're getting through this though...it's going to get better, just keep your chin up...keep doing what your doing... You are showing your strength and class by the way that you are handling this...We're here for you...
kymberann Posted December 29, 2006 Posted December 29, 2006 Ohh pure, What a bunch of crappage this guy is causing you. You have to remember this stuff he is pulling is about him and not you. it sounds like others who know your story already know that about xmm. Just remain calm, try not to over react, or he his winning for sure. Sounds like the creep just wants someone to break, so he can justify his own actions. Prove something to his wife. WHo knows, but what matters is that you take care!
Author pureinheart Posted December 29, 2006 Author Posted December 29, 2006 Thanks GEL and Kym....feel much better! ((((((((((hugs))))))))))
BenThereDunThat Posted December 29, 2006 Posted December 29, 2006 i know how it feels to feel frustrated. in my case, all i have been trying to do is the right thing for two people and in the process show kindness and understanding. i really don't know how that effort of honesty and awareness and tolerance has helped or made things worse. i am man of forgiveness and accecptance greater than anyone i know. i have let someone snoop, slander, and steal, falsify and defame, and injure and obsess - i have understood, and supported as a friend and a lover, and i have in the past been angered but i no longer go there. i am calm and caring and have respect and direction and i have done all of this with just one person, in my entire life - i don't know if she gets the point that that is what's special - that we can go thru levels only with each other this way. there is no-one else i will ever experience this with and it has been a grand adventure and right now what is important is that she is happy, safe and healthy. and any way i can contribute to that is all i've ever offered and i've done so because she is worth it and i don't care if she doesn't like me saying that or understand why - poo poo on u boo boo - tough luck that u bumped into someone like me that sees you as a person - curses! Wow, guest. Poor YOU. You haven't done a thing wrong...you're the injured party here. Give me a break. This response is so infuriating, condescending, belittling, I can't even get my thoughts together right now.
Author pureinheart Posted December 29, 2006 Author Posted December 29, 2006 i know how it feels to feel frustrated. in my case, all i have been trying to do is the right thing for two people and in the process show kindness and understanding. i really don't know how that effort of honesty and awareness and tolerance has helped or made things worse. i am man of forgiveness and accecptance greater than anyone i know. i have let someone snoop, slander, and steal, falsify and defame, and injure and obsess - i have understood, and supported as a friend and a lover, and i have in the past been angered but i no longer go there. i am calm and caring and have respect and direction and i have done all of this with just one person, in my entire life - i don't know if she gets the point that that is what's special - that we can go thru levels only with each other this way. there is no-one else i will ever experience this with and it has been a grand adventure and right now what is important is that she is happy, safe and healthy. and any way i can contribute to that is all i've ever offered and i've done so because she is worth it and i don't care if she doesn't like me saying that or understand why - poo poo on u boo boo - tough luck that u bumped into someone like me that sees you as a person - curses! Hey guest....maybe this should be a "venting" thread.... I am assuming that you were in an A? Am not sure what is being communicated in your post except that possibly one lady in your life was very special? But on the same note she isn't because of circumstances? In my situation ex-MM has no idea of what the true meaning of love is. He expected me to remain a side deal and be ok with that. I was so in a fantacy.... Anyway guest, keep posting, it sounds like your hurting too....
Guest Posted December 29, 2006 Posted December 29, 2006 venting and anger will get u nowhere fast, just as games and vindictive behaviour will get u to the same place. i stopped worry about things that are out of my control, and loving someone used to screw me up - its a totally new picture now for me because i seen the other side and reversed places with another - i used to be the jerkoff and she used to be tolerant and giving unconditionally - i like it better on the side she used to be on. and she is getting a taste of how all that crap messes with yer mind - pretty whacked on that side eh? i'm sure once u compare the two - you'll run back to the side you once were on - just as i couldn't wait to shake that ass i was for 8 months happy new years peeps and posers and all those in love - try being yerself all the time and stop looking for nightmares and creating yer own - sun is better than clouds - giddy up cocaine cowgurl the stage coach just left town! gulp gulp - booze is grand she exclaimed as he rode out of site
Author pureinheart Posted December 29, 2006 Author Posted December 29, 2006 venting and anger will get u nowhere fast, just as games and vindictive behaviour will get u to the same place. i stopped worry about things that are out of my control, and loving someone used to screw me up - its a totally new picture now for me because i seen the other side and reversed places with another - i used to be the jerkoff and she used to be tolerant and giving unconditionally - i like it better on the side she used to be on. and she is getting a taste of how all that crap messes with yer mind - pretty whacked on that side eh? i'm sure once u compare the two - you'll run back to the side you once were on - just as i couldn't wait to shake that ass i was for 8 months happy new years peeps and posers and all those in love - try being yerself all the time and stop looking for nightmares and creating yer own - sun is better than clouds - giddy up cocaine cowgurl the stage coach just left town! gulp gulp - booze is grand she exclaimed as he rode out of site You sound vindictive yourself.....
GreenEyedLady Posted December 29, 2006 Posted December 29, 2006 You sound vindictive yourself..... You're right...and what is up with the nonsense some of these guests have been spouting lately...
frannie Posted December 29, 2006 Posted December 29, 2006 You're right...and what is up with the nonsense some of these guests have been spouting lately... I wonder if people have started 'celebrating' New Years early..? hmmm
BenThereDunThat Posted December 29, 2006 Posted December 29, 2006 You're right...and what is up with the nonsense some of these guests have been spouting lately... I know! Some of them sound like they're tripping on some fun drugs!
kymberann Posted December 29, 2006 Posted December 29, 2006 Yikes, that dude needs to hop on that stage coach and get the Hell outta dodge!! I'm lost!
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