How did everyone get past the holiday?

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Mine wasnt as bad as expected. My family rarely gets together anymore for Christmas so I feared I would be sitting alone all day thinking of her and how i wish we could be snuggled up together by a fire. But my friends invited me over with them. And my ex and I hadnt been together for the holidays before so it made it easier not to dwell on christmas memories.

 

I was drinking all day Christmas eve and did something I know you will all tell me I shouldnt have done. And I knwo myself I shouldnt have. I was online, sent her an IM and said "Hey just thought I'd say hi and tell you Merry Christmas" I quickly left and went to a friends house leaving my away up not even wanting to see if or what response i got. I woke up Christmas morning and she left me a message saying "OMG....is this Bryan?! Thank you!!! You too!" THen sent me antoher one that siad "dont forget the milk and cookies"....lol not sure why she sent that.

 

But anyways it made me feel a bit better that, even for that instance, we werent hostile toward each other and I let it go at that. Then last night I am online and get an IM from her that says "Hope you had a good xmas and have a drunken......i mean Happy New Year" I just told her i did, hope hers was good too, and said i needed to get to bed. goodnight. I know it means absolutely nothing, and im doing my best not to let it bring me into a trap. but so far it does feel like a weight is lifted off that we have at leats been cival to each other. Even if its just for the holidays. And that for whatever reason she followed up on it last night gave me a good feeling of relief, im not even sure why.

 

sorry im rambling, but just wanted to see how everyone handled the holiday and my thoughts will be with u all as we ring in the new year. I saw a thread earlier on here about wishing the ex merry christmas and it was all ill advised to do it. So heres hoping a week from now im not kicking myself thinking I made ANOTHER wrong move during this difficult breakup.