missydismay Posted December 28, 2006 Posted December 28, 2006 Long story, but very odd and quite interesting... ;-) So...about seven or eight years ago, I left my friends behind and started high school in a new city. I was thirteen, almost fourteen. (I'm twenty-one now.) The very first day of high school, I was walking down the hallway in complete intimidation, when I saw HIM. My heart dropped in my stomach and I did a lot of detective work to find out his name and how old he was. (Jack, and he was a sophomore.) There was nothing strikingly good-looking about him, but he just gave me that feeling. I became increasingly more and more in love with him but never spoke to him. I found out what all of his classes were and made sure to take the same hallways so I could pass him every hour. I switched lunch times to be in the cafeteria with him. I found out what all of his favorite TV shows were and his favorite music and what kind of car he drove. I wrote him an ENTIRE NOTEBOOK of love letters. And for a year, I'd never been introduced to him. One day, it was obviously slipped about me and how much I worshipped him because he made a point to stop me in the hallway and tell me, "Hi. How are you doing today, Kasey?" Imagine my fourteen-year old giddiness about it for the next three weeks! It was then I realized that he was not only a god to me, he was unbelievably kind, also. This infatuation lasted for three years, and then he graduated. I was devastated. I turned down dates with perfectly good guys because I thought it would ruin my chances with Jack...JUST IN CASE. He went out with girls, and every time I found out about one, I would be filled with hatred and rage and jealousy and sink into depression for however long they dated for. I was absolutely insane over this guy...and in the three years that I "knew" him, I can honestly say that we didn't exchange words more than three or four times. So! A couple of years went by, and for some reason, college did me well! I lost a lot of weight, grew out my hair (it was really short all through high school), and without meaning to, ended up...hot, or something. I started dating really good-looking guys that I never would have hooked in high school. And then...then! This summer, I saw HIM. He was working in the next city over at a restaurant I went to. He saw me and I said hi to him, and he asked me how things were going, sort of gave me "the eye", asked me where I went to school, and then asked me if I was seeing anyone. I told him no, got kind of flustered, and left. I knew I was blushing. I mean, this is the ultimate looove of my life we're talking about. So I moved to the same city to live with my friend Pauline...who has known me since the Jack Years. One day, a few weeks ago, she gave me the most insane news... Jack had moved to the SAME STREET we were living on, FOUR houses down from us! He is now within one minute's walking distance from my house! Bizarre, huh? I'm wondering if I should just show up at his house one day, and if so, what should I say? I don't know if I'm just going to randomly run into him or anything...but he does occasionally see my little sister and he does ask her how I'm doing. (They were in band together in school. Haha. Imagine my jealousy.) I don't know...I still believe that he's The One or something and it's still running through my mind how he asked me if I was "seeing" anyone this summer. It's to the point where I'm not obsessed with him anymore...but honestly, if I ever hooked up with him, I would get the date tattooed on my body. Please...don't call me insane. I know I am. It was disgusting how obsessed I was with him. He will ALWAYS be in the back of my mind. Even if I get married or something. Do you think I should seek him out? And how should I do it?
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