BenThereDunThat Posted December 20, 2006 Posted December 20, 2006 I don't even know why I'm here. I'm too sad to type. I'm too tired to think. But I can't sleep, my heart is pounding too hard. My favorite boss died suddenly of an aortic aneurysm last night. They sent me home this morning and I've just been rattling around the house in a daze. I just loved that man. He was so kind and so funny. I know that he cared about me and enjoyed having me work for him too. We were always "yelling" at each other. The very first day I started working for him, he needed a binder put together ASAP. The contents were only a few pages but the best I could find in a hurry was a 3" binder. So I rushed it into him so he could have it for the call he was on. After the call he brought the gigantic thing back out to me and said what the f**k is this? We both laughed so hard at the ridiculousness of it. I knew then that I would enjoy working for him. I can't stop thinking about his poor family. I feel guilty that we got all day with him yesterday and his wife couldn't even make it to the hospital in time. His son was flying home today for the holidays. I think my company sent him a private jet to get him home sooner. Sorry to be a bummer. I am just so sad.
Freedom Now Posted December 20, 2006 Posted December 20, 2006 I am so, so sorry. I, too, have suffered a loss this week. My dear, dear younger cousin died two nights ago. This is a tough time for loss my friend. Know that we are here for you in your time of grief.
Guest Posted December 20, 2006 Posted December 20, 2006 man, and so close to christmas too. i am sorry you all are hurting. i can tell u the wife must feel horrible about not being there. when someone is hospitalized - its serious and u must show love. i will explain the difference - a few months ago, i went thru an extremely dangerous phycotic episode for three days and the explosion was triggered by people i thought loved me, filing court papers to have my daughter removed and making me no longer a parent - there is nothing worse you can do to a father. i simply went into another place, where i swear to got i was being hunted down, with the intent to be killed, and i ran from 'death' for 6 hours in cold rain until i was arrested by police wearing just jeans. i remember every moment of feeling at any second a bullet blasting thru my skull and believing i was staying one step ahead but i would stop , catch my breathe and then, have to run again. i spent days in the hospital in those muddy clothes and not a single person came to see me. and i contrast with a friend of mine, mr. appletree, his appendix ruptured and he was extremely sick, and his wife stayed with him, holding his hand the whole time. so, if he had died at least she was there. for all anyone knows i could have diesd that night and to this day it would not have mattered. that's when i knew i needed better friends and lovers in my life.
Guest Posted December 20, 2006 Posted December 20, 2006 I am so sorry for your loss. In this holiday season, nothing can be worse! that's when i knew i needed better friends and lovers in my life. That is why it is *LOVE*, and love alone, that matters. *Not history* of living together, if there's no love; *not sex*, if there's no love. Only the one who truly loves you will think of you every minute, will care how you feel at each given moment. When you are on a flight and the plane is going to crash, at the end of your life, you will think: "Now I'm leaving this world. Who is thinking of me now? My love still doesn't know soon I will disappear from the earth!"
Guest Posted December 21, 2006 Posted December 21, 2006 I am so sorry for your loss. In this holiday season, nothing can be worse! That is why it is *LOVE*, and love alone, that matters. *Not history* of living together, if there's no love; *not sex*, if there's no love. Only the one who truly loves you will think of you every minute, will care how you feel at each given moment. When you are on a flight and the plane is going to crash, at the end of your life, you will think: "Now I'm leaving this world. Who is thinking of me now? My love still doesn't know soon I will disappear from the earth!" WOW - NICE
alphamale Posted December 21, 2006 Posted December 21, 2006 sorry about your loss BTDT....he sounded like a good guy
Author BenThereDunThat Posted December 22, 2006 Author Posted December 22, 2006 Thanks, GEL, Alpha, RMD. To tell you how special this man was, they brought a grief counselor into work today. Anyone who wanted to could go see her. I was already scheduled off so I didn't see her, but believe me, I would have. I just feel so lucky that I got to be his assistant. RMD, I've been thinking about you too. Losing someone so suddenly. I know that my pain isn't even a tenth of what you went through. It's silly that I even just said that. I've been trying not to post because I don't want to be a big downer. But boy, this sure has wiped out a lot of the negative feelings I was carrying around. Anyway, just a quick thanks for your guys' kind words.
puddleofmud Posted December 22, 2006 Posted December 22, 2006 Please accept my sincere condolance regarding the loss of your dear friend and sweet blessings to his family as well. You are such a wonderful person by expressing his loss and how you felt about the manner in which he lived his life. May the good things about your relationship always inspire your life and be an honor to his memory. Warm hugs to you!
movinon05 Posted December 22, 2006 Posted December 22, 2006 I'm very sorry BTDT. I'm sure you'll be able to look back at all the great memories and be thankful that you knew him.
Author BenThereDunThat Posted December 22, 2006 Author Posted December 22, 2006 I just got done watching a video montage of him - set to "Sweet Baby James" and "The Mighty Quinn." I knew he was an old hippie at heart, he told me as much. But, wow. Just, damn. He will be missed. I'm not one for believing much in God, but I've been praying so hard for Him to watch out for his wife and his kids....
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