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For those who know me around here, Why do I miss mm so much? The Emotional Affair is out in the open and I still can not help but want to talk with him? I can smell him, taste him, oh it's so much pain. Anyone relate?

 

AP

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For those who know me around here, Why do I miss mm so much? The Emotional Affair is out in the open and I still can not help but want to talk with him? I can smell him, taste him, oh it's so much pain. Anyone relate?

 

AP

 

I'm there with you when it comes to the MW. I miss her soooo much!! Everything that I see or do reminds me of her. Everything I own has her on it. I've thrown away all the stuff that was hers, including the sexy stuff, but I can't throw away my bed, couch, car, etc. I'm predicitng that time will help all of us. My divorce will be final pretty soon and I'm getting myself ready to get back out there one day.

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I'm there with you when it comes to the MW. I miss her soooo much!! Everything that I see or do reminds me of her. Everything I own has her on it. I've thrown away all the stuff that was hers, including the sexy stuff, but I can't throw away my bed, couch, car, etc. I'm predicitng that time will help all of us. My divorce will be final pretty soon and I'm getting myself ready to get back out there one day.

 

This sucks! I should not have got involved! Fantasy YES, Real feeling's Confused?

 

AP

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This sucks! I should not have got involved! Fantasy YES, Real feeling's Confused?

 

AP

 

I think about not getting involved with her all the time, but then I wouldn't have learned a lot about myself. I know without a doubt that I love her, and this wasn't just a thing. Reading everyone's experiences is really helping me cope with all of this. By the way, yes this sucks right now but I know everything is going to get better.

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I think about not getting involved with her all the time, but then I wouldn't have learned a lot about myself. I know without a doubt that I love her, and this wasn't just a thing. Reading everyone's experiences is really helping me cope with all of this. By the way, yes this sucks right now but I know everything is going to get better.

 

Good for you! I wish the very best. I almost wish that MM and I could b with each other the way we used to. Smiles and hugs.

 

AP:) :)

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Good for you! I wish the very best. I almost wish that MM and I could b with each other the way we used to. Smiles and hugs.

 

AP:) :)

 

that falls back into the fantasy.

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For those who know me around here, Why do I miss mm so much? The Emotional Affair is out in the open and I still can not help but want to talk with him? I can smell him, taste him, oh it's so much pain. Anyone relate?

 

AP

 

just get busy, stay busy for a while.

 

I enrolled in bikram yoga. Tried it out for 2 sessions, now I bought a 20x pass.

 

I go 3x times weekly and on weekends. (filling the void of not seeing the MW, since we are in NC for the 3rd week).

 

It clears my mind, I can function normaly without over analyzing. Everything is out of my control, rather than thinking what-if, I spend my time improving my health, body etc.

 

I am 5'11, 205lbs. Used to be over 240lbs. ok ok to the point, I am average body. Hopefully after 20x sessions, I will have flat stomach, be more muscular and attractive.

 

hopefully attract AVAILABLE woman.

 

before this whole getting busy, I was driving my self bonkers and my friends too. Even when she called during NC, I really wanted to talk to her but cut her off abruptly.

 

ok I am rambling, GET BUSY

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I can smell him, taste him, oh it's so much pain. Anyone relate?

 

AP

 

I certainly can!! I have not touched him for over a year... and the last time that I saw him was 4 months ago....

 

It gets easier.

 

You have to believe that you are worth a 1000 times more than what you are getting from him. Remind yourself as often as possible. Do not settle. Keep the NC, time away from him will be kinder to your heart than breaking NC.

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i know my ex would have to do nc because if she let her guard down and we actually did something just a innocent as a hug, she would melt and rip my clothes off and kiss me forever

 

just thought i would add my fantasy

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I soooo know the feeling. I still think about him contantly...he's the last thing on my mind when I go to bed at night and the first thing I think of upon waking up! I had to start taking sleeping pills so that I could sleep through the night! I would wake up in the middle of the night thinking about him. It was aweful! Read the words to the song below....I swear this is exactly what it feels like....

 

ADDICTED by Kelly Clarkson

 

It's like your a drug

It's like your a demon I can't face down

It's like I'm stuck

It's like I'm running from you all the time

And I know I let you have all the power

It's like the only company I seek is misery all around

 

It's like your a leech

Sucking the life from me

It's like I can't breath

Without you inside of me

And I know I let you have all the power

And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time

 

It's like I can't breath

It's like I can't see anything

Nothing but you

I'm addicted to you

It's like I can't think

Without you interupting me

In my thoughts In my dreams

You've taken over me

It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm not me

 

It's like I'm lost

It's like I'm giving up slowly

It's like your a ghost that's haunting me

Leave me alone

And I know these voices in my head

are mine alone

And I know I'll never change my ways if I don't give you up now

 

I'm hooked on you

I need a fix

I can't take it

Just one more hit

I promise I can deal with it

I'll handle it, quit it

Just one more time

Then that's it

Just a little bit more to get me through this

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