hopeto Posted December 19, 2006 Posted December 19, 2006 Hi all. it has been a while and if you are just reading my post you will need to go to the others to have clear idea what is going on. I have a question for you men...(GUNNY WHERE ARE YA!!!) I have been doing so good untill I talked to my sister-n-law the other day. this is my h step sister. anyway, he has been going over there the past few nights and talking with her husband. well, I am talking to her and the conversation comes up what they had talked about. he tells them that he has not had sex in a year(not because I was not willing). so basicly he tells them he wants to go have him a new nice pieve of you know what and I was told that my brother -n-law says to him well ...... you know you can go get a piece anytime you want. you know I am just sick of it and the question is why does it hurt me. h is so concerned with his eye candy that he is just doing everything he can to hurt me and he is the one who has looked at the child porn and brow beat me for 18 years about how fat I am and unatrictive I am and that he made me feel like I was never good enough. and when it all boils down to it...it was never really me to began with. he is not sorry for what he has done, or what he has done to me or what he has even done to his daughter. he is only sorry because he got caught. another queston why does it bother me that he does not care why does it hurt instead of making me angery? well I asked him about how much money was in the bank last week and he said why and I said that I was going to go ahead to get the divorce started because I wonted him to go and get his piece he was wonting. on that day I took of my wedding band and said you know I just cant take it anymore but I looked and he has taken his off as well why does this hurt? is it because he is just throwing it in my face that he is not wrong and sick in his mind for likeing to look at what he is looking at. and he is still he is gone tonight to the office and that is what he is doing. he says it is to look at the check book and find a bill etc but I know what he is doing and so does he. I feel like I am getting stronger but why does it still hurt so much. and of course I cant file cause we had to finish christmas shopping and buy for our daughter and family in which most of it was for her. but I just wished I had answers. in a sience I hate him for doing what he has done then my heart aches cause I just want to go to him and huge him and feel his arms around me. why?????
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