Guest Posted December 19, 2006 Posted December 19, 2006 I guess im just venting here i dunno. But lately I've been slumping. Something popped in my head the other day and Ive been uncontrollably feeling bad about it since. Im not the kind of guy that meets many girls. Im 24 and ive had about 4 serious girlfriends in my life. And im not exactly the best lookin guy around cuz if I was, ha I'd probably have dated more than 4 women. This past relationship with my ex was the first real one in about 3 years. I got lucky about 4 years ago and met a great girl. Sweet, smart, unbelieveably beautiful. I know looks arent everything, but this girl was repeatedly touted as the best looking girl in our entire college, and i had her. we dated for about 2 years then something happend, we began fighting, i would picked really petty fights and we ended up splitting. Her words were that I just didnt give her the things she needed and lately the way i was treating her turned her off. Well I was devasted, Im not overly self conscious, but no way did I think I would ever get a girl like that again. Again, I understand looks arent everything, she had everything personality wise as well, but this girl was model like gorgeous. It took over 3 years for me to find anyone that made me feel half as good as dating that girl did. My ex. And she was also very very beautiful. This is a girl that gets hit on every single night shes out everywhere she goes. Shes what you would call a 'head turner" When I first met her a year ago I thought I had no chance wwith a girl ilke that. Turns out 8 months later we began talking online and got together. The whole time I was nervous cuz I didnt think I deserved her. I wasnt as confident as i should have been and it showed. Here I had this unbelievable girl, that practically every guy in town wanted to date, (for the second time in my life I might add) and what did I do. When she began working her one job and her other business and was super busy and had to cancel plans repeatedly with me cuz it was her "busy time of year" instead of being understanding I grew increasingly irritated at it and began getting mad at her and once again starting petty fights. All i had to do was be understanding and realize "hey u went thru this once, control ur emotions, u dont want to lose this one" but I did. And its killing me. I got mad at her several times for this over the last month of our relationship, and I think thats what ultimately drove her away. Every day I go over in my head what I should have done, what I wished I would have done, and how I should have acted. I have no idea why i didnt at the time. I keep thinking, I went 3 years not being able to get a girl to get my mind of my first ex. No one compared in looks, smarts, personality. Finnally I got lucky enough to find another one, and I blew it again. Not only cant I wait 3 more years for another possible chance to find someone to make me forget about my most recent ex, but lighting doesnt usually strike 3 times. I went so long thinking I blew it with the one I wanted to spend my life with, that I'd never get another chance like that. I do, and I blew it, big time. How do you even begin to handle that?? Is this just something brought about from getting ur heart broken? Do many people not see the things they did wrong until it was too late? I think about my ex literally almost every minute im awake. Ive tried and trried to stop it. Work, friends, going out, dating, and it just doesnt help. Every day I get up and say "just once, im going to go the entire day without thinking about her" and I cant physically do it. Then when im with my friends I think "just go these few hours and forget about her. And still cant do it. Im in trouble.
Guest Posted December 19, 2006 Posted December 19, 2006 I guess im just venting here i dunno. But lately I've been slumping. Something popped in my head the other day and Ive been uncontrollably feeling bad about it since. Im not the kind of guy that meets many girls. Im 24 and ive had about 4 serious girlfriends in my life. And im not exactly the best lookin guy around cuz if I was, ha I'd probably have dated more than 4 women. This past relationship with my ex was the first real one in about 3 years. I got lucky about 4 years ago and met a great girl. Sweet, smart, unbelieveably beautiful. I know looks arent everything, but this girl was repeatedly touted as the best looking girl in our entire college, and i had her. we dated for about 2 years then something happend, we began fighting, i would picked really petty fights and we ended up splitting. Her words were that I just didnt give her the things she needed and lately the way i was treating her turned her off. Well I was devasted, Im not overly self conscious, but no way did I think I would ever get a girl like that again. Again, I understand looks arent everything, she had everything personality wise as well, but this girl was model like gorgeous. It took over 3 years for me to find anyone that made me feel half as good as dating that girl did. My ex. And she was also very very beautiful. This is a girl that gets hit on every single night shes out everywhere she goes. Shes what you would call a 'head turner" When I first met her a year ago I thought I had no chance wwith a girl ilke that. Turns out 8 months later we began talking online and got together. The whole time I was nervous cuz I didnt think I deserved her. I wasnt as confident as i should have been and it showed. Here I had this unbelievable girl, that practically every guy in town wanted to date, (for the second time in my life I might add) and what did I do. When she began working her one job and her other business and was super busy and had to cancel plans repeatedly with me cuz it was her "busy time of year" instead of being understanding I grew increasingly irritated at it and began getting mad at her and once again starting petty fights. All i had to do was be understanding and realize "hey u went thru this once, control ur emotions, u dont want to lose this one" but I did. And its killing me. I got mad at her several times for this over the last month of our relationship, and I think thats what ultimately drove her away. Every day I go over in my head what I should have done, what I wished I would have done, and how I should have acted. I have no idea why i didnt at the time. I keep thinking, I went 3 years not being able to get a girl to get my mind of my first ex. No one compared in looks, smarts, personality. Finnally I got lucky enough to find another one, and I blew it again. Not only cant I wait 3 more years for another possible chance to find someone to make me forget about my most recent ex, but lighting doesnt usually strike 3 times. I went so long thinking I blew it with the one I wanted to spend my life with, that I'd never get another chance like that. I do, and I blew it, big time. How do you even begin to handle that?? Is this just something brought about from getting ur heart broken? Do many people not see the things they did wrong until it was too late? I think about my ex literally almost every minute im awake. Ive tried and trried to stop it. Work, friends, going out, dating, and it just doesnt help. Every day I get up and say "just once, im going to go the entire day without thinking about her" and I cant physically do it. Then when im with my friends I think "just go these few hours and forget about her. And still cant do it. Im in trouble. I HEAR YA - ALL I CAN SAY IS I WILL NEVER MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE AGAIN - I LEARNED BIG TIME FROM THIS ONE. SO, I AM NOT BUMMED OUT BUT JAZZED BECAUSE NOW I GET IT.
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