puddleofmud Posted December 16, 2006 Posted December 16, 2006 As I have previously posted the EX has responded to being present (with guest) at our bank's home office Holiday party which takes place tomorrow eve at 7 PM. I am well prepared. Or I was trying to be well prepared. I had shrugged off any presentations by stating that I was going to be busy organizing the event (not at all a lie and taken well because I was let off that particular aspect). I shall wear red satin and I shall be astoundingly gorgeous. However, I should never have gone to the grocery store after work today. I was in line and heard a "voice". I knew immediately that it was "him' and I couldn't breathe nor move. It was all I could do to just remain standing. My eyes moved and all I could see was a hand--HIS hand--picking his bags from the end of another line. I was just praying he didn't see me. I have a cold and have been so ill and my face is swollen and rashy. He didn't see me at all--I am positive of that. I never saw his face because I couldn't look at him, but what I did see was his hand--his hand with a ring. His wedding ring. He sounded the same: ever so very polite and charming. How many times had we been to this same store together? Three years. And he can just walk about as if nothing ever happened? Obviously he is town for the night and will be present tomorrow. I was prepared but now I am reeling. Something about him being so normal and wearing his wedding ring just made me so sick and so mad and so disgusted. Something about him being back in MY neighborhood just pissed me off! I have had to fight for my dignity but it seems to come to him so easily. I went out into the parking lot and he was standing at his car (a very shiny NEW corporate vehicle) w/ a very pretty young female. They were laughing as they put the bags in the trunk and drove away. I darted into my car and blew my nose and coughed a lot and almost puked. Now I am just plugged up with sinus, sleepless and NUMB. It's not just over--"it" never even started! Three effing years of shopping together and now he just strolls in as if he owns the place? I realize that I am speaking of nothing but a mere grocery store--but gaads, this is MY community. He could go anywhere in this City, but he just had to go where we always shopped? Obviously he will attend tomorrow night. Being that I look so crappy and that I am feeling so ill maybe I will beg off and not go, red satin included. I was perfectly fine until I saw that freakin' ring! Three long years and no rings on any of his fingers and now all I can see in my mind is that ring. I feel like I am choking on barbed wire. I doubt his "guest" is his wife. I would be willing to bet it is the young and lovely girl I saw tonight--who obviously has no problem with the "ring" thing. Geez, can I pick em or what?
BenThereDunThat Posted December 16, 2006 Posted December 16, 2006 Oh, yuck. I'm so sorry you had to endure that POM. What a jerk. What possible reason could he have for going to that store. It's like he was hoping he could run into you! And for what? To show off the young chick? I hope that's not the case, but if it is, he sucks! I think if you're not feeling too hot, and you don't absolutely have to be there, I'd skip the event too. I don't know about you, but I can't deal if I don't feel like I'm on top of my game. Come tomorrow (today already!) you could wind up putting that red satin on and let the outfit do the work! I'll be looking forward to hearing if you went or not and how it went if you did go! Good luck - sending positive energy your way! BTDT P.S. - I was wearing red satin myself at the holiday party!
kymberann Posted December 16, 2006 Posted December 16, 2006 Puddle, I am sorry this had to bring about such a trigger response for you. Just think of it as one aspect of gaining closure. It made you angry. Use that anger to look your hottest, cold or no cold! And knock em dead! We'll be here to hear about it!
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