I am loosing my mind!

[pricillia]

I really think that I am loosing my mind. I am trying to be patient and it has worked so far but it is getting the best of me..

 

I am just going crazy... not sure why...

 

I try not to push him and have been doing a good job, but it can not be all about him, if something is bothering me I should be able to tell him. but it is like he can only handle so much. He looks to me for support for him and that is fine but right now I need some too

[bonehead]

I really think that I am loosing my mind. I am trying to be patient and it has worked so far but it is getting the best of me..

 

I am just going crazy... not sure why...

 

I try not to push him and have been doing a good job, but it can not be all about him, if something is bothering me I should be able to tell him. but it is like he can only handle so much. He looks to me for support for him and that is fine but right now I need some too

 

It is so hard when everyone leans on you, but your left to tip over.

 

Try talking to him.

[bonehead]

Communication and support needs to be a two way street.

[pricillia]

I know that it needs to be a two way street, but I feel like I have so many insecurities right now in a way and he has been taking my feeling the wrong way.

 

This relationship is not easy in so many ways but none the less I do really want him in my life.

 

If I show any type of resistance he thinks that I am seeing someone else

he said that he wonders this all the time, I am really hurt by this as I would not lie about it. If I love somone that I am faithfull.

 

I always then have to convince him that I love him.

 

I know that he has been hurt before, but it is like I am paying for that hurt and mis trust.

[pricillia]

anyway this time I really feel that it is over as he told me because of something that I said to him.

 

He said that I should do my own thing and he should do his own thing.

 

I have mixed feelings about this. I pushed him last night to see how much leeway I would have and it was none, he was so frustrated.

 

I am numb from all of this and I did lay in bed last night and I prayed for some help.

[NoIDidn't]

pricillia

 

You didn't ask for advice and I am not giving it. But I am not going to tell you what you may want to hear.

 

This man is using you as a crutch. An emotional crutch. You can do so much better than him, but for some reason, you cling to him.

 

His constant insecurity about who and what you are seeing is his way of manipulating you to be loyal to him and only to him. But he does not have that loyalty to you, as he has his W. And will more than likely tell you that apparently you have accepted that aspect of your relationship with him.

 

He is telling you that he wants no strings attached, but you do. So he is telling you either accept what he has to give you (little to nothing it seems) or get to stepping (do your thang while he does his). He does not respect you, and does not deserve the time and attention that you give to him.

 

Maya Angelou said it so profoundly: "When a person tells you who they are, believe them". Believe him. Don't read more into his words or think that maybe he is not sure of the implications of what he is saying. He is. He is not willing to give you more than he already has. He is telling you that much. He is verbally and emotionally abusing you. You deserve far more than what he ever offered you.

[Porn_Guy]

you need a nice guy priscilla who puts your needs first...

[pricillia]

Thanks for all your reply's I agree with you all.

 

You have helped, Peace to all, as in my other post after this one I am taking a break to regroup so peace and see you soon

[NoIDidn't]

Good luck, Sweety.

 

I hope you have a wonderful holiday.

[Rooster_DAR]

you need a nice guy priscilla who puts your needs first...

 

:laugh::laugh:

 

Assuming this is sarcastic humor.