VandGsMom Posted December 12, 2006 Posted December 12, 2006 So today I started dialysis... not fun, and I have to stay hooked to this little maching in a backpack to cycle my interstitial fluid 3 times a day. I am tired, weepy, grouchy, discouraged, and every other negatice adjective I can think of right now. This is not a gratuitous bid for sympathy, but I do need to commiserate with someone, anyone. I am heaping WAY too much on my 2 friends in the whole world (and I mean world in the actual meaning..lol) and even though they say they love me, I know that even with dying, enough is enough. So let see... this is the icing on the cake of crappiness for the year. This year I have had my large intestine, my spleen, my appendix, one ovary, one kidney, etc removed along with other problems, and now my other kidney is going down the toilet. I just want to live and be healthy, and to enjoy my kiddos while I can. Right now it is all I can do not to tear out my remaining hair and rip this tube out of my stomach. I am so full of hate for I don't know what? I love every breath I take, every heartbeat is a song that I play over and over. The smell of the morning is my favorite perfume, and I want to soak it all up and wear it like a mantle about me and swaddle my kids in it so they know the value of a day, but unless I can get past this need to beat my head against the wall until I am bloody, I dont know how to do this. Help me move past this.
magichands Posted December 12, 2006 Posted December 12, 2006 So let see... this is the icing on the cake of crappiness for the year. This year I have had my large intestine, my spleen, my appendix, one ovary, one kidney, etc removed along with other problems, and now my other kidney is going down the toilet. Well... I can say for sure that your heart will be the last thing to go. And that really says something about you. Wow. I really feel for you. Life sure isn't fair. But if the Grim Reaper comes anywhere near you, I think you'll rip his tits off! Totally. Awesome. Attitude. You rock!
Author VandGsMom Posted December 12, 2006 Author Posted December 12, 2006 ... But if the Grim Reaper comes anywhere near you, I think you'll rip his tits off!.... <snort> I was planning on going for his balls, but the tits would give me the element of suprise, assuming he has man boobs...
burning 4 revenge Posted December 12, 2006 Posted December 12, 2006 The smell of the morning is my favorite perfume, and I want to soak it all up and wear it like a mantle about me and swaddle my kids in it CK One is my favorite perfume
Porn_Guy Posted December 12, 2006 Posted December 12, 2006 dialysis is not fun...my older sister had kidney failure and now has it every week.
Author VandGsMom Posted December 12, 2006 Author Posted December 12, 2006 CK One is my favorite perfume Lord, I thought I was the only one.. okay, smell of the morning goes to #2 then... Do you still ever get the urge to bust out your Yaga shirt, spray on some CK One, and play the Alanyis?? Ahh, the good ole days... *wink*
magichands Posted December 12, 2006 Posted December 12, 2006 CK One is my favorite perfume I think that was a metaphor. Metaphors are far too good to be kept in a bottle.
Author VandGsMom Posted December 12, 2006 Author Posted December 12, 2006 dialysis is not fun...my older sister had kidney failure and now has it every week. Gee, you're a barrel of laughs... lol
magichands Posted December 12, 2006 Posted December 12, 2006 Gee, you're a barrel of laughs... lol It's informative in the same way as being told that twisting your nipples a couple of revolutions is not a good idea. If only they'd told me before the stitches. Stitches of pain, not laughter.
Author VandGsMom Posted December 12, 2006 Author Posted December 12, 2006 It's informative in the same way as being told that twisting your nipples a couple of revolutions is not a good idea. If only they'd told me before the stitches. Stitches of pain, not laughter. Anyone know whats worse than a hurricane??? :rolleyes:
burning 4 revenge Posted December 12, 2006 Posted December 12, 2006 Anyone know whats worse than a hurricane??? :rolleyes: a tittytwister?
magichands Posted December 12, 2006 Posted December 12, 2006 a tittytwister? Finally... a thread that brings tears to my eyes.
Author VandGsMom Posted December 12, 2006 Author Posted December 12, 2006 OMG, you two are just what I needed tonight. I used to HATE my older cousin who would grab a flat chested 8 year old me and twist little "tits" on the front of my shirt that I couldn't flatten out and then make me walk in front of my other relatives. I got him back, tho. Right after he got married, I was down visiting and offered to go get his dry cleaning while I was picking up something at the pharmacy. I bougth a tube of pink lipstick, planted a couple lipstick smudges on the clean shirts and rubbed a little perfume sample them, and Voila! His wife almost murdered him before i found out and told her... hee hee
magichands Posted December 12, 2006 Posted December 12, 2006 I got him back, tho. Right after he got married, I was down visiting and offered to go get his dry cleaning while I was picking up something at the pharmacy. I bougth a tube of pink lipstick, planted a couple lipstick smudges on the clean shirts and rubbed a little perfume sample them, and Voila! His wife almost murdered him before i found out and told her... hee hee Ouch!! You have been listening to a bit too much Alanis. I can't get enough, either.
Author VandGsMom Posted December 12, 2006 Author Posted December 12, 2006 And isn't it ironic, don't ya think? *singing* "It's like raaaainnnnnn on your wedding day. A freeee ride when you've already paid. The gooooood adviceee that ya just didn't take. And who would've thought, it figures...."
quankanne Posted December 12, 2006 Posted December 12, 2006 I bougth a tube of pink lipstick, planted a couple lipstick smudges on the clean shirts and rubbed a little perfume sample them, ow, that's mean. Screamingly funny, but mean :p *note to self: must remember this for future reference* hugs to you as you go through dialysis. My mother went through it also, but the best part of it was that she stopped itching so badly from the toxin build-up in her blood. The rest of it was as crappy as you write. back to the nipple-twisting: if there are no man-boobs available, seriously consider duct-taping his pubes ...
Author VandGsMom Posted December 12, 2006 Author Posted December 12, 2006 Does it really make the itchies go away? Seriously? No one told me that, I guess cause I didnt complain about it.... And as for the duct taping... girl, I am from Texas, duct tape is a regulation side-arm... lol You are TFF
quankanne Posted December 12, 2006 Posted December 12, 2006 TFF? yeah, it cured the itchies, but she'd dealt with them for a very, very long time before they said her kidney's functioning capacity was "low enough." It liked to about drove her crazy, all that damned itching. lol, at one point they gave her some really good drugs because she told me, "you know what? I still itch, but now I don't care!!!" Gah! I miss her madly ...
Author VandGsMom Posted December 12, 2006 Author Posted December 12, 2006 TFF = too effing funny My remaining kidney is being slowly eroded by a 18 cm cyst and some sort of infection that has caused my interstital fluid to become septic also, so I am doing peritoneal dialysis also... I am sorry for your loss, but maybe the memories make up for some of it? I hope so, for my childrens sake.
quankanne Posted December 12, 2006 Posted December 12, 2006 maybe the memories make up for some of it? I hope so, for my childrens sake. oh, they do! Her best thing was the love she gave, and that makes the biggest difference in my life, even now. What's the line from Shadowlands, where Debra Winger tells Tony Hopkins, "Remember, the happiness now is part of the sorrow later." Very true ... because even in your sorrow, you still have that joy of that person, who stays alive as long as you memory keeps them close to you. even death cannot keep love from finding the person it's meant to belong to, I believe that with all my heart. are you in Humidity Hell (aka Houston)? or some other part of the state? I'm in the Piney Woods area ...
burning 4 revenge Posted December 12, 2006 Posted December 12, 2006 TFF = too effing funny My remaining kidney is being slowly eroded by a 18 cm cyst and some sort of infection that has caused my interstital fluid to become septic also, so I am doing peritoneal dialysis also... I am sorry for your loss, but maybe the memories make up for some of it? I hope so, for my childrens sake. Isn't it so frustrating that we live in a time when we can diagnose with such accuracy and yet still be so powerless to effectively act? Sometimes I think it must have been easier to live in a time when they attributed it all to devils and stuck some leeches on you.
quankanne Posted December 12, 2006 Posted December 12, 2006 yeah, but how would you explain all those dang HICKEYS?
Storyrider Posted December 12, 2006 Posted December 12, 2006 And isn't it ironic, don't ya think? *singing* "It's like raaaainnnnnn on your wedding day. A freeee ride when you've already paid. The gooooood adviceee that ya just didn't take. And who would've thought, it figures...." Did Alanis really *get* irony, or did she just confuse it with bad luck? That's what we always used to wonder anyway. So sorry for your pain. I wish I could cheer you up. I'm not nearly as witty as Burning or Magic, though. They rock! I used to live in Texas. One of the funniest things is how you can say really mean things about people as long as you add at the end, "...Bless her heart!" As in, "Bertha looks like a man, I think, with that moustache of hers. Bless her heart!"
Author VandGsMom Posted December 12, 2006 Author Posted December 12, 2006 SR: ROFL @ Bless her heart. I was born in Louisiana, they say "Sha, baby..." there... I am sooo guilty. Riddler: No thanks what? B4R: Actually, the leeches aren't so bad, but it sort of hurts my feelings when people call me the devil.... & quankanne: I live right down the road from the Alamo, lol. My exhusband and family all live in the Jasper area, but I came back here after the divorce. God bless dry heat, right?
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