Guest Posted December 10, 2006 Posted December 10, 2006 Hey, I was hoping some of you could possible lend your judgment and try to give me an idea of what exactly is my problem.. (All you psych majors, this is for you) Problem: Age 0 - 20: Normal happy boy. Rode skateboards. Played basketball. Had friends. Age 21 - 23: Afraid of leaving childhood. Became sheltered. Still happy and positive, but confused.. Overtly concerned over getting a girlfriend and losing my virginity.. Withdrew from friends & family. Age 23 - 28: Finally got laid! Reunited with old friends. Started coming out of my shell. Became comfortable around friends and people my age (bars, clubs, etc). Thought I was "fixed". Best years of my life, period. Age 28 - Present: Realized being a social person just wasn't me. Feeling more concered about my appearance (I'm short and look like a 16 yr old). Began losing my fun easy going personality.. all I do is work.. Graduated college. Been away from my old friends too long to ever return. Totally alone, bitter, full of negativity and anger, no longer can feel sad, no longer have emotional highs or lows, grey, no longer WANT to change or be happy or make friends. GIVEN UP. There you have it. Anyone care to make a diagnosis? Am I just a guy who didn't have all the luck and didn't find the right people in my life, therefore it's not a matter of needing therapy, I just need to bite the bullet? Or was I just weak and couldn't handle the heat? Or was I justified because I was born with a crappy tiny little body and came from a crappy city with crappy friends, therefore it's not really my fault? Or is it all a chemical imbalance? Or do you not care and nobody cares and it's all up to me and only me and my happiness all depends on my strength and willpower?
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