katarina774 Posted December 6, 2006 Posted December 6, 2006 I can't take it anymore. I am tired of feeling so alone and now I have come to the conclusion that he never really loved me after all. I think he must be seeing someone now bc every time he ever acted this way b4 he would call in just a few short days and want to make everything right again with us. Well now he just doesn't seem to care. I know I am just rattling on but I am actually just trying to keep myself from crying myself to sleep again tnite. I thought I would just vent type instead. I really love Jake (my ex) and I would do almost anything to fix this and if anyone out there has any suggestions I am definitely listening. Ever since the break up I have been trying to move on. I just can't. I have even went on a date or two. I come home from the dates and cry myself to sleep. I can't stop obsessing about who he may be with. I know how much he needs or loves to have a warm body to snuggle up to and it breaks my heart that it isn't me. I know this makes no sense, I am just going out of my mind. Please help me figure this out someone.
Quinch Posted December 6, 2006 Posted December 6, 2006 I'm sorry You need to let go of him and not keep hanging onto a distant hope that you might get him back. Make a clean break, move on and find someone who will make you happy. I'm afraid it sounds like that's what he has done so there's no reason why you shouldn't do the same. I won't give you the 'plenty more fish in the sea' line but you deserve better than this and when the time is right you will love again. Good luck
beautifulearth83 Posted December 6, 2006 Posted December 6, 2006 at least you're not the jerk...you can live knowing that you tried and you loved...just listen to some music and go havea good time with some friends.
Trialbyfire Posted December 6, 2006 Posted December 6, 2006 Stay strong. You know you can do it. You're tired right now and feeling terrible. You know that in the morning, things will feel a little better. Did this happen recently? If so, crying more isn't a bad idea because it bleeds off some of your pain. If it's been months, you need to move on in life. I know how you feel to hold it all in until you feel like you're going to shatter. *hugs*
Spooon69 Posted December 6, 2006 Posted December 6, 2006 I know it feels like crap, but if you need to vent more, just go at it right here. It does help.
Guest Posted December 7, 2006 Posted December 7, 2006 I wanted to say thanks to everyone. It helps to come here. I am just really sad bc he was my best friend. I don't really have any friends bc they are all married with children and I am not. I don't meet new people at work. We have officially been broken up for 10 days but whos counting right? lol. I went 8 days on NC and then called him but didn't leave a message, he then called me right back and I didn't pick up. He called right back and I answered and we talked for a good 45 minutes or longer. I guess I was kind of disappointed that he didn't start calling again. How stupid is that. I know I have typed this all before but I just keep recycling it all in my mind. I just wanted to say thanks to all of you who posted back to me. I am really scared bc I feel myself falling deeper and deeper into a depression every day. I just keep going thru my regular have to rituals work and pretending to be fine. thanks everyone for posting it did help.
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