Cossette4 Posted November 28, 2006 Posted November 28, 2006 For the last 5 Christmases, we've always been together. My family has a huge get-together on Christmas Eve, and his family does the same on Christmas day. We broke up in July, and I remember thinking, "Well good at least it's not around the holiday season b/c I'd be so depressed." But now it IS the holiday season and I'm definitely still feeling not-okay. I know I torture myself with this, but I just keep thinking of what Christmas present he will be buying his now live-in girlfriend (that he moved in with 2 weeks after our breakup---cheating or rebound--you decide--I'm stumped.) I'm not even a superficial person that seriously cares about the gift, but just thinking of him buying her some beautiful expensive piece of jewelry makes me want to vomit. And I hate that I'm not at all ready to go out looking for a relationship b/c I'm still so hurt over this one. Because if I had a new boyfriend, I KNOW he would be jealous and be thinking the same thing about "Oh, I wonder what he will get her for Christmas?" So yay for saving him from all that pain while I get to swim in it. Meeeeerry Christmas.
melodymatters Posted November 28, 2006 Posted November 28, 2006 First of all, don't imagine scenarios's of how fun and exciting THEIR holidays will be. Its just a fantasy and if your going to make up things, make up things that will help YOU feel better !!! And, I totally know how you feel, to the point that TODAY is my birthday and x-mas is right around the bend and I am spending ALL of that alone.So to avoid a major depression, I am telling myself : This birthday and x-mas might suck, but next year is going to be FABULOUS !!!!
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