KEZxMISSINxMExBABE Posted November 21, 2006 Posted November 21, 2006 This is quite a complicated thread,but here goes.i met me boyfriend wen i was 15 im now 22 we have 2 gorgous little girls courtneys 5 and rylies 10 months.the past 3 yeras have been more off than on n the one way i got pregnant again wiv him last yr is we was bak on for about 2 month we wasnt gether during tht pregnancy as he was dealing drugs n he was seein some one else and i was to as he was sayin i didnt love him n i cudnt take seein him wiv anyone else y i was carryin his 2nd child. when i look bak i wonder if its wat the drugs made him like as now hes been sent down for 1 year n 1 year probabioni went to see him 4 week agao n noone ov us (me n his fam )as ad a vo or letter or call for 4 weeks.except me last sunday he was asking for a t mobile top up voucher me bein silly bought it i sent it to the fone he was on n it wasnt for stu. i think hes got drugs for it im so fed up i love him to bits he sed hes sent 4 vos out since last time i seen him but im wondering if hes bak talkin to all the scum he knew b4 n slags even.i love him wiv all my heart .hes sent me this Never again! walking the street late at night need some drugs and moneys tight problems at home stress me out in everyones eyes im just a lout no real friends when i look back only one friend my pipe full ov crack. crack eases my pain and clears my head and stops me from wishing tht i was dead. like a hammer hitting a nail crack made me bad,now im in jail. but soon im out to start my new life, to set up a home and find me a wife, who,ll ease my sorrows and drown the pain so ill never touch crack again hope one day you,ll be my wife. a tear for you theres atear falling down my cheek thinkinking ov u my eyes start to leak a tear just like a stain a tear to show the pain this tear as ad some good times but its also felt the bad for it as been to heaven and it as been to hell .But this tear is really special and important too why is it so speecial ? becoz its meant for you!
LakesideDream Posted November 21, 2006 Posted November 21, 2006 Why not take this "break time" while your "boyfriend" is in jail to make some positive personal strides? Use the system (most do) and get a good home started, and go to work on your education. Your limited language and writing skills will limit your future in the "real world", forcing you into bad situations, likely making it necessary to "settle" to survive. Good Luck.
Author KEZxMISSINxMExBABE Posted November 21, 2006 Author Posted November 21, 2006 Thankyou for making me happy thanking for helping me through,Theres been so many bad times but there so many good times ahead.Forget wat everyone else as said,there oppinions are irellivent and unimportant & dont count.. Sod Um all babe who cares I`ll See u on the out:)
Author KEZxMISSINxMExBABE Posted November 21, 2006 Author Posted November 21, 2006 ive got my new house now wiv our kids just really wish he was ere with me as i lost my dad to in may at 46 i cud do wiv avin stu ere . i do wanna go college or bak work libut at mo i dunno if the drugs av screwed his head up he seems live in his own world i know he loves me bits but hes so para xi dunno if its an excuse or he really does love me so much. i cannt say he dont love me cos i know he does its the drugs tht make him change
Mythical Posted November 21, 2006 Posted November 21, 2006 Hey, I defiently think you need time to think about this. Sorry maybe I didn't read properly is he still doing crack? If not did he go to recovery to get better or is it just jail that is making him quit? I lived with a crack head until a month ago he is in therapy but i know it won't work. If your boy is still doing crack I think you need to leave him for good. It is thw rost thing to be around and exsepcially for your two little girls. I know it is so hard to not help someone you care for and you can help if he is willing to help himself. I have nothing against him that he is in jail at or or that he was a drug dealer, my boy was too. I just really hope for you he is done with crack and can move on to a more succesful life. I know exactly how someone addicted to crack can be and I know how it would feel to be the one addicted to it. Just let me know if he still is on crack? So I can understand more But for now be strong! Good luck
Author KEZxMISSINxMExBABE Posted November 21, 2006 Author Posted November 21, 2006 well i dunno he sed he did something wrong on the vos so i only just got m letter this week(the 1st one in four week he reckons his vos got sent bak to him wen he sent them out sed he made a mistake.plus he sed hes ad no envelopes and he `d foned me of a lads mobile asked me top it up,i think hes maybe on sumert in there weres his credit gone cos it not on me or his mum n family.the fone call off ht was only asking for credit he sounded like he was on somethin .sounds like jail is easy street to me:mad: he asks so differnt wen on it he used to have respect but wen he was on it i felt used if i didnt shag him he wud tell me *** off n he wud tell me have 3 some wiv his mates and stuff i know he isnt like tht really i know he loves me
BannaBee57 Posted November 21, 2006 Posted November 21, 2006 I think that having drugs around in an environment with children is very dangerous. Don you want your children to grow up thinking that using and selling drugs is OK? Most people want their children to have a better life than them so why not provide that for them? You can start by leaving this sorry excuse for a man and working on showing them what a postive, healthy life can be like. Good luck! Also, in the future you will probably get more responses and better responses if you use appropriate grammar and spelling. "said" not "sed", "with" not "wiv", etc...that way it's easier for us to read
Author KEZxMISSINxMExBABE Posted November 21, 2006 Author Posted November 21, 2006 sorry i was tryin get my point accross i dont do tht spellin on purpose its just cos im used to it wiv textin maybe at least some ppl are happy to help me out and for the reorcd like i sed we wasnt toghther he wasnt around the kids............his mum as them weekends ...uno y he does his stuff n we didnt live gether sorry my life aint al happy n rosy like some . so\z i used tht tex again if it pisses u off dont read it
Author KEZxMISSINxMExBABE Posted November 22, 2006 Author Posted November 22, 2006 can other ppl understand my writing if any one as a boyfriend in jail n wants a chat get bak to me plz:)
Spinderella Posted November 23, 2006 Posted November 23, 2006 Kez, What advice are you looking for? Nobody can tell you how to get your bf off crack. Nobdy in fact can make him get off it, but him. I do think though, that most people who are not being very self aware dont make big changes unless something forces them to. So either you have to accept him with the crack, or not accept him with the crack, because you cant change it, only he can. Have you thought about life without getting back together with him? I know it would be difficult, but it does sound like you at least get some support from his family. How do you feel if you think of not getting back together with him? How do you feel if you think of getting back together with him still being on crack and disrespecting you?
TYASAFAHICSI Posted November 23, 2006 Posted November 23, 2006 Hey---are you playing with yourself in your avatar? Cuz yor boyfrind is in jail? That's hot!
Author KEZxMISSINxMExBABE Posted November 24, 2006 Author Posted November 24, 2006 Hey---are you playing with yourself in your avatar? Cuz yor boyfrind is in jail? That's hot! NO SORRRY ABOUT THE PIC ITS THE ONLY ONE I HAD ON MY PC.TRUE WHAT EVERYONE SAYS NO ONE CAN GET HIM OFF IT JUST PISSED :(OFF N STUFF SO THOUGHT SOMEONE MAYBE IN SAME SITUATION X
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