forgotten1 Posted November 18, 2006 Posted November 18, 2006 Well, Its been a week since my LDR ex gf and I broke up. We parted peacefully, and it wasn't really either one of us letting go. It was a joint thing. She was to busy in school and her life to give me enough of anything. I felt pushed away completely and as though my relationship didn't exist. I've been doing well, but I still think that NC is hard. I wrote a blog about her on my myspace. She saw it and wrote one in response. Basically she said that she doesn't know if this is the right decision (to break up) and apologized for the fact that she pushed me away. Before she went to school things were almost too good to be true. I know we are both holding onto that feeling. I don't know how to completely let go. I don't know if I want to. I don't think she does either. I want to contact her, but I just wish she would do it first. I feel as if I wait to long, the less chance of her contacting me. I'm doing my best to push on, being social and keeping busy. I'm holding out all I can. I mean, if something happened, like cheating etc, I would never have any intentions of contacting her. I just think she needs her space. Maybe I'm being selfish for trying to invade that space, but I feel if I give her too much space shes going to be gone for good. Maybe thats the best thing. I dunno...I'm so confused. I'm heading to the gym now in hopes that I can forget things for a couple hours....blah...
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