Sideburns Posted November 18, 2006 Posted November 18, 2006 I'm curious if there's anyone here that ever feels guilty after going out drinking? Lately for me, the last 8-10 months or so, everytime I go out drinking I find the next day I start to feel realy guilty about it and end up resolving 'never to drink again' ... Which of course is a lie, it just whittles away at how much I drink when I do go out (which is few and far between). I remember, just a few years ago, going out with the boys and drinking until we were obliterated and committing countless stupidities without any recourse. As opposed to now; I can't have more than two or three pints without feeling like a pile of crap the next morning. Usually because I wake up and think to myself "did I say that? did I do that?" etc... I find this to be absolutely bizare, and saddening at the same time because I really like beer. At the same time it's also very aggravating due to the fact that all my friends are usually all pissed up by the end of the night and I'm stone sober...And everybody knows what it's like to be the designated driver or the sober guy at the party listening to the drunks rattle on about the dumbest things. Any thoughts?
Walk Posted November 19, 2006 Posted November 19, 2006 I think I can relate a bit... Used to drink like a fish with out a care in the world, then gradually began to feel worse and worse about it. Nights when I'd go out and drink to much I'd end up feeling horrible about myself the next morning. Wonder why I had to abuse myself so badly. But I was using alcohol to "escape" from problems. It was my crutch. I suppose I recognized that I was relying to heavily on alcohol to have fun. Instead of going out and having fun and as an aside I had a few drinks. I was drinking to have fun. Anyway. I realized my interests and the things I once enjoyed had changed, but I was clinging so tightly to my past that I wasn't allowing myself to accept it. guess I kind of outgrew that part of my life. Now I have more fun meeting up with friends for breakfast, and laughing and joking about the ironies of life, then I do getting plastered at a bar and being stupid. Plus, Instead of using alcohol to escape who I was, I had to confront a lot of things in my life that were outdated, and no longer helping to make me a better person... ideas, actions, friends, etc.
pureinheart Posted November 19, 2006 Posted November 19, 2006 I know this isn't about drinking for me, but I understand the guilt....I smoke too much .....
Sand&Water Posted November 19, 2006 Posted November 19, 2006 RE: I understand the guilt you are experiencing, Sideburns. It happens to the best of us. Sadly to many people, drinking is more of a hobby, nowadays, than an actual means of refreshment. However, you made a choice to drink. You chose to drink 1, 2, 3, or 15 bottles of liquor. As a result, you can also, choose to limit and withhold yourself from drinking too much. I don't use alcohol to heal the pain within my soul. No, Sir! Besides, I hate the taste of beer -or anything remotely close. Sand&Water
Author Sideburns Posted November 20, 2006 Author Posted November 20, 2006 I appreciate the everyones input. I'm jsut glad to know I'm not the only one who has felt this way. I especially liked Walk's comment about life changing, and clinging too much to the past. This is what I think I'm experiencing. For too many years I was defined by partying and just being that guy who can drink anyone under the table etc... But not anymore, time to move on I suppose. thanks everyone, -S
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