Guest Posted November 12, 2006 Posted November 12, 2006 I don't really know what I am aiming for by writing this, just to let it all out and imagine people listening. I broke up with my girlfriend today, well.. she said she needed space, but I'm not gonna let myself believe we have any more future. We met only three months ago - so weird to think it was just that short time ago... and we were together for only a month when she had to go to uni, 200 miles away. That month was incredible - never been so happy in all my life as I was in those few weeks. She was my perfect girl, personality of an angel, and I swear there is no one on the planet that I personally could find more attractive! I love her more than anything. Then she went to uni... everything changed so fast, we went into it with this naive idea that it would be fine and love would "power through". The thing is, I could tell immediately that I suddenly became a hell of alot more of a burden than I had been, she became more realistic, but while I was at university at home - I still clung to this naive ideal future in my head. I noticed it though, noticed how conversations started becoming more awkward - I don't know what I expected from her, far too much though. Being the idiot that I am... I didn't think about how to rectify things, I jsut got stupidly paranoid and insecure about it. This only caused her to feel guilty... and when you're trying to build a new life, somewhere hundreds of miles from home, the last thing you need is a boyfriend making you feel guilty everytime you make friends with a guy. I could see myself doing it, but didn't stop, I can't begin to tell you how much I regret it. It all culminated today when she said she needed space, that she couldn't live the new life, with such a strong tie back to home.... I'm gutted. Now I'm sitting here, totally lost without her, and I know it was my fault for being such a fool about the situation. The only good thing is that she might be happier now, I bloody hope she is, I just wish I could have done it. I have no idea what the hell I'm going to do now, or where I'm going to go.
oh_what_am_I_doing Posted November 13, 2006 Posted November 13, 2006 Sounds very much like what I went through when I went away to college. (As well as thousands of other people, I'm sure). My first quarter at college, I had a professor that got to talking about LDRs with SOs back home, and he said that all LDRs end by Thanksgiving. I thought to myself, "No way- not our relationship. We've got this deep connection... we've known each other for years... blah blah blah" Well the prof was right. We broke up on Sweetest Day (mid Oct). So I'm sure this is no consolation, but life does go on, and with time, you'll meet others and get your heart broken a few more times! (Gotta love life in your twenties!)
Guest Posted November 13, 2006 Posted November 13, 2006 same thing here, We were good friends who "took it to the next level" and dated for 7 months. Madly in love , spent everyday together. She went off to school over on the west coast, im here in New York. At the end of September we talked after things didnt feel right even though we still loved each other...and it ended. It sucked, and it still does, but at the same time i dont want to hold her back whatsoever. Ill be graduating college in a few weeks and it was an awesome exprience ( for the most part )...and id be selfish to not allow her to be happy with her time in college. I miss her like hell and part of me wishes she didnt go to a school so far away , but im coming around to the idea that life goes on. breaking up is hard to do , and when it ends for something like distance , it can really hurt, because no matter how well u treated eachother or how much you love eachother, theres always that pain of not having your loved one there sharing life with you. No more long distance relationships for me ! Trust, things get better!
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