Hard to think

[Guest]

Sunday is our anniversary, 10 years, its hard to think of us being separated. I just dont know what I am suppose to do. Should I call him, go see him, ask him out. It feels strange to have to do this. Since he left me, I was wondering if I should wait until he calls me. But what if he doesnt? Could that be a sign it is officially over? Its been 4 months now, we have been able to talk, but there is no signs of him coming home. He seems very happy that he has noone to answer too. In all honesty, he really never had to answer to me, I only expected him to let me know whats going on.

 

I still love this man, but I am scared that the more time we spend apart, we will not be able to get that spark back. He does tell me he loves me too, sometimes I even feel that, but so unsure what is expected of me. I hate this waiting process. As the time has passed, I have realized living alone is not as bad as it was at the beginning. My hardest times are at night when I go to bed alone, wanting to be held, and hear the words I love you.

[LakesideDream]

Why don't you pick a screen name and register? There is no info to create a context for your post.

 

Sorry you are feeling bad.

[g-dubbs]

You sound like you love this man still and want to be with him but it doesn't sound like he feels the same. I know this may not be easy to hear but you need to let go. He left you 4 months ago and in your words he seems happy. Right now he is getting what he wants. He is able to be alone and do single guy things but still has you following him around to boost his ego. My advice is that you try as hard as you can to forget him and worry about yourself. You will never completely heal if you don't just leave him alone and go on with your new life. Look at it as a chance for a new begining. If he doesn't hear from you and doesn't have you calling him he may be the one following you around in a few months.

[anna13]

I would just say not to call him for a week or two. this doesnt mean that it is the end of it all , it just means that you need a mental break from him just for now or till after your wedding anniversary comes and then goes. he will remember it . give him a chance to call you . and dont wait by the phone that day for his call and dont expect it. that way if he doesnt call it wont be a surprise but if he does that will be good too. and dont think that he will think that you dont love him because you didnt call him that day . . treat yourself to something that day , plan to have dinner with a friend or two and dont talk about your H that day as much as posible. You H might even expect you to call him that day . I just dont think that you should. make yourself a to do list every day or have a premade schedual of things to do to keep yourself busy for the next week or so . some space is worth it . maybe he will realize that if he doesnt call you he may lose you . . i know he seems happy seperated but sometimes men dont show how they really feel. there is no way of knowing if you are always the one wanting to be around him . My H and I are seperated and even though we have been working on making things better , I try not to call him too much and i just restrain myself from calling him when i feel like it . alot of things go through my head when i want to call him like , I am his wife still i have every right to call ect.. but i do restrain and doing so has given him the oportunity to contact me and show me that he wants to talk to me . my feelings for him are stronger then his feelings for me but i think because i give him space it is helping our relattionship so far . and i think it may help yours too.

[anna13]

ps ~ you should join , this place is very supportive and also there are so many guests that come in and out of here it will be hard to knowwhich one is you . joining is easy and is just as annonymous as being a guest stay strong .