Guest Posted November 9, 2006 Posted November 9, 2006 My LDR gf and I broke up tonight. A couple weeks before we broke up, she made me really angry one night. This was followed up by emails from her begging me not to break up with her. She even gave me her myspace and email passwords to help me trust her. Right before we broke up, I got suspicious and checked her email and my space. I wouldn't usually do this, but curiosity kills the cat I guess. There was an email to her friend titled "I have to break up with him". In it she tore me down to nothing complaining about everything I did wrong, and sharing some personal information I wasn't comfortable with. On her myspace there were contacts with guys that she supposedly cut out of her life, some of them about past sex experiences. She got mad at ME for checking this after she gave me the passwords. She said "I didn't think you would use them. I was just giving them for peace of mind". Anyways, fast forward to today... I got some balls again today and checked her myspace. There was msgs from one of the guys I spoke of before. He was playing it cool trying not to feel guilty cause he has a GF. One of her comments to him was "hahaha you wanna f**k me". Then there was another msg TO another guy. She obviously sent to him first cause he was saying how surprised he was to hear from her since she had cut off communication. At the end it said "I miss you, you were nice to kiss" and something along the lines of how she has a crush on him. So why am I writing this? Well, the guy I last spoke of was actually a girl. I know this sounds crazy, but apparently the girl that dresses as if she was a guy, and my ex fooled around with her awhile ago. I don't want to make this sound jerry springerish. Now my ex is mad at me for finding this and thinking it was a guy. I told her that no one in a loving relationship should talk like that to another guy or another girl. Shes making me feel wrong for using passwords she effortlessly supplied to me. Shes trying to make me feel guilty for this guy/girl situation. I mean, I know I have trust issues. She told me in the beginning of the relationship that she had cheated on everyone she had been with. Supplied with passwords, I think anyone would take that chance to look. I just want to know whether to feel bad or if you guys think you would have done it too. I feel like crap regardless right now, but at least it might shine some light on everything...
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