Guest Posted November 6, 2006 Posted November 6, 2006 I dated a guy for a year. when i met him i felt like i was in heaven, he treated me well and was everything i asked for. soon i got too involved and was afraid that we would never work out because of our family backgrounds. his parents are well educated and his dad is a doctor. my parents struggle to make a living. my dad is a gambler and doens't even have a job. i was afraid to tell him about myself in that aspect so i never did. every time i get closer i felt scared so i pushed him away. so we broke up and got back together a lot of times because i would regret that i woudl let go of the best thing that ever happened to me. he said i was the only person he ever cared for and loved eventhough he was in a 4 year relationship, he never said he loved her. soon i got more attached and started having expectations and after breaking up so many times he didn'd trust that i would be there for him. i told him that i love him and would never leave him but if we break up i need time to myself for a while. he took that as me not caring about him and felt shaky about the relationship. we lasted "officially" for about 5 months and then he was tired of a "relationship" so we dated exclusively but no titles for 7 months. i thought i can wait for him to be ready but i got hurt in the end cuz he still wasn't so i wanted to break it off. once again i regret it and went back but he wanted complete space. its been 2.5 months of NC and i miss him like crazy. im really sad cuz its almost my bday and if he doesnt call then does that mean he doesnt care anymore? will we ever be ok again...
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