Guest Posted November 1, 2006 Posted November 1, 2006 I am trying to figure out what I should do, but I am afraid of making a mistake.. See me and my husband have been separated for about 4 months. We both still love each other, at least we both say we do when we talk. Every weekend since he has moved out, we get together for dinner and maybe sex. I try not to talk about our relationship, but find it hard not too. I tell him I hate that fact we live apart and wanted him to move back home, but he really never gives me an answer. Besides he lives with his mother, so she is pretty much doing everything for him, from taking care of his kids, to making dinner, making sure the kids get school, the dad pays the bills, I guess he helps out with about 75 a week. Under these condition I dont blame him for not wanting to come home. Every time I see him I just want to hold him in my arms and never let go. But I find myself staying at a distant afraid of being hurt even more. To be honest, every time I leave to go home without him it hurts even more. He made this comment to me the other day but I am kinda of confused in what he is saying, so here it goes "look nothing between us has changed, we just live in different places, we are still married, I love you". Sounds stupid.. I told him the that living in separate places changes every thing. Our worlds are dividend. Besides, he really never calls, come over, its me doing all the calling and going to visit him. I am afraid that if I dont stay in contact with him he will find someone else, and hurts just to think that. I find myself feeling more alone each day. I struggle with finding things to keep myself busy, so I dont have to think about him.. I feel like I am addicted to him, only meaning I just cant stop wanting to be with him, I love him so very much. We have been married 10 years this november. My anniversary is coming soon and the thought we are going to be apart hurts like hell. I just dont get it, he says he loves me, wears his ring, complains I dont but I tell him why should I, "I feel alone". How can a marriage survive this, it isnt fair... Any thoughts
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