datboispiggs Posted October 30, 2006 Posted October 30, 2006 I've posted here before but keep having troubles coming to realizing things. I have been off and on for probably the last 2 years with my "ex". During our relationship I had a hard time trusting her. She did things in her previous relationships that would cause anyone to question her intentions. So we argued a lot when I suspected her of doing something. Early in the relationship she went to a party with high school friends of hers. I was not asked to go so I questioned why. She said she was going to come to my house after the party, but when I called her she said she was at her friends house and that she was going to stay there. Her ex-boyfriend was more than likely at the party and I speculate she stayed with him. Another day while we were broke up I went to her apartment. I buzzed the door and she let me in. I don't think she knew it was me, but when I knocked on her door, someone came to the peephole and left. After that I could slightly see someone in a red sweatshirt walk by. Then about a minute later she opened the door in her towel. She claimed she was in the tub. Probably bumping ugly's with this person I thought I seen and the fastest way to cover up was to put a towel on. I didn't go looking through her apartment because I didn't want to find someone and become a murderer. So I left. Fast forward 2 months or so. She was seen hanging out with a guy leaving the bar. I asked her about it and asked if she was seeing someone else. To her reply "no". So I said did you exchange phone numbers. She said "no". I looked through her cell phone and it was in there. I was pissed but soon let it go. I was just relieved that I was in her company again. Another two weeks go by. We argue about stuff. My brother see's her leave the bar with a black guy. Not racist but its just way out of her style. She came over later that night and was crying telling me how she would always love me and for me to remember that. I said something was up cause bars close at 2 and she came over at 330. She said she went home. I laughed it off and found out about a week later she slept with him. So I ignore her for months then she calls me telling me she wants to be with me. I am always hesitant on going back and making things work, therefore, never really giving it my all. Which I know is not fair but can someone blame me? So this last time we break up. I was being an ******* supposibly. Which if you knew me know that I am very easy going. I have a stoner mentality. Not too much bothers me till it keeps repetitively happens. Always make people feel welcomed and treat people with the utmost respect. She ended up dating one of her best friends. The same guy who 5 months earlier was scared of me cause he thought I wanted to beat his ass. When I don't even talk to the kid. Which led me to believe that something ws going on with them two along time ago. She was at my house a week before I seen her out at a company party with him. He claims I called him a fag. Which I did not. I asked him how life was and was pretty much nice to the guy. I don't need confrontations in my life. So they break up and she claims that she broke up with him. But I heard he couldn't stand her so he canned her. Now we were together for a month. I have been dealing with legal matters with my D.W.I (I blew a .08 by the way and was in no way too drunk to drive) She said she wanted to move away with me cause we would not be able to have a relationship with all the past history involved in this area. I said I was willing to do that but she would have to wait till I got done with my **** in order to move. So weeks go by we have a fine time together, then I get an evil look when a girl-friend of mine calls to tell me its her birthday the following week and she wants me to hang out with her. My ex gives me an attitude. Then later that night we're out drinking and she's dancing with my buddies. Didn't make me mad, just didn't get how she can do whatever and I get bitched at for talking to a girl. So she was working at her home town and callled me and such. I was pissed so I ignored her calls. I went downtown with buddies and turn around and there she is. She cursed me out so I said we're leaving. I didn't talk to her for a week and she decides she's moving to Florida. I was quite sad. I am everytime she leaves my life. I do love this girl but can't seem to get past all the pain she's caused. I did sleep with other woman but only after she broke up with me. What am I just supposed to be a loner my whole life? I asked her if she went back to this friend of hers and messed around with him. She said she didn't. I told her I would ask him and she said do whatever you have to. She says "I don't know how guys are if they like to brag about stuff" Same thing she said when I asked her if she slept with this other guy. So the last time I talked to her she said if I can't get past this stuff it will never work. I said we'll can you blame me? She says " I've pushed so much **** you've done aside" I said I got things to take care of and this relationship is dampering my spirits. I think I need to do things on my own. She goes "you said it". I told her to call me the next day to tell me how her first day at work went. She never did so I haven't bothered her since. Its been almost a month now. My conclusion was that she was just keeping me around till someone else came in the picture down there. She claims that she'll never find anyone like me. But from past experiences she'll date around which is fine. But please leave me alone. What do I do with this situation. It really puts me down when she leaves and I feel lost. After a month I get better then she comes around. Another thing is she always calls my brother and he always tells her what I'm up to. I feel like she has an upperhand on things. I told my brother to not even mention me. This is my life let me live it and quit talking to her. Sorry this is so long I am just confused. I sometimes think things will get better but then they don't. I just want advice on how to get over things and how to deal with my brother talking to her. I try to do things then the next day he'll ask me and I'll tell him some bull**** story. Sometimes I'll say I was at a chicks house or hanging with a bunch of woman, just so it gets back to her and she goes nuts. Please help. Im becoming a weak individual and know I am stronger. But this is really playing a huge part on my life and its discouraging. Thanks for your help.
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