CosmoBella Posted October 30, 2006 Posted October 30, 2006 So it happened. I gave in from no contact no even a week and he screwed me again (not literally:p ). I sent him a msg Sunday morning to stop trying to contact me. I felt like I was in control of my life again trying to have fun and enjoy life but its getting so much harder for me to move on and grieve my broken heart when he still texts me every night. Its like I want him but I don't. Confusing right? Its like I want him to want me the way I am, I want him to be that man I fell in love with. But I know he's just a jerk that plays with my heart. Well, he told me he wanted to work things out and he would call tonight! He didn't, I'm really not surprised. It hurts because I had to go out and I didn't because I waited for his call. I know the whole "pull & push" game and I'm opening my eyes that this will never happen. This is the end. I so hurt, I need to know how can I maintain no contact? With someone that I truly love. What do all of you do when you want to contact the ex? Thanks for reading.
L0stmyl0ve Posted October 30, 2006 Posted October 30, 2006 I really do know how you feel. It's a horrible feeling. Why do we let ourselves get hurt like this, over and over again? You can change your number but if you are like me you will know his number off by heart. So even if you do have a new number and you get the urge to text him he will then have your new number. I know your heart will go everytime you hear your phone because you will hope and think it is him, but believe me in not too long you will not be thinking this way. Just try and ignore his texts and phone calls. xx
Guest Posted October 30, 2006 Posted October 30, 2006 i know how it feels when u wanna talk and the ex is doing the old peek a boo...saying they are so hurt yet still playing games! lol hey, u just get used it - and, the thing to remember is when they change their number once, usually a person will get it, until one nite of misery, then they change it again...and that's all they need...by then that 'medium' is know to have been shut down... and i don't think the 'quiet one' should really underestimate the power of their actions...they are right because when u are good at THE SHUT DOWN - I'LL TAKE THIS THO GAME' eventually the student learns from the master again i love my teacher
Author CosmoBella Posted October 31, 2006 Author Posted October 31, 2006 I have changed my number once before because of the same reason. To keep him out! It doesnt seem to work because someone will tell him and then its back to the same usual game he plays and I participate in (horrible I know, this is what I've called "love"). It seems so terrible that he's the reason I go out of my way to change a number that my family and friends have. I can't help but just stare at my phone and I know it has to change but it doesnt seem that I'm having any progress with NC. Why does it seem that we only feel that we are the only ones that hurt, think and wish we can make things work? Do you think that the ex's feel some sort of pain towards the who break up?
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