kdark Posted October 30, 2006 Posted October 30, 2006 I have had three relationships in my life: My first one was a girl who used me because I was good looking and I treated her like royalty. I caught her bragging to her friends about how she found a hot, nice guy who she had wrapped around her fingers. This caused me to distrust girls who are too attracted to me. My second girlfriend was a girl who was a friend that I should have never dated. We both realized it after less than a month, and we are still pretty good friends. My third and last girlfriend I dated for almost a year. Things went great for about three or four months, but then we started to get in fights about every little thing. Things I thought were little details she thought were huge things, and she would pick fights with me over everything. She came from a family that she fought with numerous times a day, and I came from a family that I never got into one fight with. Whenever we would fight, I would have these horrible pangs of depression, that sometimes lasted for days. Eventually she picked a fight that I thought was just too rediculous, and so that night I broke it off with her. We worked at the same place, so the No Contact rule could not be applied. We started talking again about a month after I broke it off, and we tried to just be friends. But one night she was over at my house and things just clicked again... so we started up again. She vowed that she had changed, and that she wouldn't start stupid fights with me ever again... Well because of how things were before, I had completely hardened myself to everything that she thought was an issue in our relationship, so everytime she would bring up something with me, I would just assume it was another stupid fight she was starting, when in reality it was serious issues that most couples go through. The night I broke it off the second and final time, she was trying to reach out to me and wanted me to trust her enough to acknowledge that she had changed, and that she wanted me to open up to her completely about my attachment issues. Her last words said to me that night were to effect of "will you let me in?" (It was a very emotional night/next morning for me, so I have a hard time remembering). I turned around and just walked out to my car, never answering her... I've always had problems getting past a certain point in relationships because of my attachment/opening up issues. Does anybody out there know ways to help with this? Oh... and is there any chance of salvaging my last relationship? I miss her so damn much...
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