I hate him right now!

[ShoeGirl]

This is the link to my previous thread if you don't know my story

http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t102414/

 

so tonight he called me when he got off work and here is how the conversation went:

me: hi

him: hi, how are you?

me: ok, how are you?

him: I will be great in a few minutes

me: why?

him: I am going out to a bar

me: oh, when?

him: in about 20 minutes

me: oh, so you don't want to talk about earlier? (we had a fight over text messages)

him: no I do but it won't take long

me: okayyy

him: I am tired of this I am done being your boyfriend

 

so I start crying hysterically, yes I knew we were going to break up but I was going to do it, he begged me not to break up with him over the phone just a few days ago... now he has the nerve to break up with me.

 

Ok so what have I done wrong here? been mad that he lied, been mad that he wants to go to bars about 3 times a week, and that's about it

 

What has he done? Cheated on me with about 8 GUYS, told me that he was over doing that and that he wanted to marry me. (He told me last night that he wanted to marry me, and tonight he breaks up with me)

 

I am so f-ing pissed off. I should have broken up with him a few days ago when I started to. But no he begged me to not do it over the phone because we have been through so much. I just want to scream.

 

The only reason I am mot crying hysterically right now is because I went to a friends house and drank a bottle of wine. Maybe I should get more wine so that I can make it through the next week.

 

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

[ShoeGirl]

I can't stop crying... that is all I have done all day. I cry, I can't sleep, I can't eat, and I cry.

 

I don't know how to stop crying

[magichands]

Listen to yourself. You're obsessing over who is doing the breaking-up. It doesn't matter one bit.

 

He's gay, and you feel used. It sucks. A lot.

 

I'm really sorry that you are going through this, but just try to focus on being good to yourself for a while. Hopefully things will get better.

 

From where I'm sitting you certainly seem to be better off without him. And free to be appreciated by someone who deserves you.

 

Can you manage a fake smile?

[Yamaha]

Was he ever really yours if he's gay?

 

Best to end it now so you both can find what you need.

[Guest]

i am sorry you are going thru some tough times but i think u are putting to much pressure of yerself regarding your expectations of each other. let me explain: if my partner had cheated on me with 15 people - would that be worse than if they had with one? nope. its just a number. its just a cheat.

 

what is it then that is important?

 

it's whether the person is honest and shows respect and stops the games and lies. it whether or not the person can show u respect by being face to face with u and telling u these things. i did that last nite over the phone to someone who is scum, but i did it. and i will see this person face to face on monday and i can because i have no fear of them, i am actually showing respect by showing them what they did only hurt them. see, the ones that run and hide and lie will always be underable to give and get respect until they STOP THINKING ABOUT THEMSELVES.

 

of the old excuse, i can't do that beccause it would hurt [them] SO MUCH. welll, isn;t that to bad, it was ok to hurt someone else anytime you want right? when i spoke with MR. Nothing = i told him i will be seeing him and he said THIS ISN'T A GOOD TIME...and i said it wasn't a good time when you decided to have whatever u wanted and found someone that was as spoiled as you was it - SO that's a shame. and i told him, its ok for me to call you scum and nothing because that's just hurt and words only need to be released once then they are done - no more time and energy needs to be sent.

 

and MR. Nothing is just like those who send in their 'best wishes' card but in ways much, much, worse because he can avoid hurt while the woman has to encounter occassionally - no nothing does nothing - that is his calling in life.

once again. one day to ensure nothing is every viewed off my comp. i have two appointments on monday - with scum and pigs

[ShoeGirl]

I know what I am obsessing over, I was going to break up with him, I almost did and he didn't want me to over the phone... I agreed that it was a low move so I agreed that we would talk and probably break up in 2 weeks when I was in the same city.

 

I talked to him a while ago... yeah yeah yeah I know no contact but this was a very different relationship. I need to talk to him to be happy. I know we broke up, I am not delusional, we are not going to get back together, I don't want to. I just want to talk to him, we had a civil conversation and we both think it is best for us to continue talking.

 

Maybe he was never mine but I know for a fact that he has become my best friend. I love him as a friend and I want the best for him