wreckless316 Posted October 27, 2006 Posted October 27, 2006 Hi im 19 now and my ex, shes 18 and we were going out for 2 years and everything was pretty stable and great until everything went crazy. After our first year of going out, i went off to college wich was pretty hard because she stayed back in high school, but we got through that. We broke up a few times but always got back together because we knew how much we loved and needed each other. this last summer was great because we got to spend so much time together and we went to a lot of different places like yosemite and vegas with her family and it was just awesome. I was a little worried because in august she was going to start school and it kinda scared me a little but not too much. So she went off and the first week was ok but not too hard...i would call her and she would tell me she was busy and all and i got a little upset but that was ok i was kind of understanding. Then the second and third week passed by and thats when it got really bad... first she wouldn't pick up some of my calls, then when she would pick up she was busy with some of her work or her softball team. I kept nagging her about giving me a call because she would never call and i wasn't used to that. One time i called her and she was a little drunk and she told me to like **** off and that i was annoying and nagging her too much. It happened again a few more times after that....so i got to the point where i was getting really hurt and i felt really betrayed by her. I knew that she needed her space and adjustment but i really felt like she wasn't treating me right. so i guess we just kinda broke up. But i couldn't let go, every so often i'd ask for her back and id beg and cry, and she would cry but nothing would budge. She didnt want a boyfriend. But at the same time...shed call me sometimes and wish school was easier, and that she was back at home with me happy again. shed tell me she miss me and she loves me. everytime she would do this, id go back to her and ask for her back but shed say no. so this last sunday i decided to give it my all and pour my heart onto her by going to her school and surprising her. she didnt really like the idea....we had an emotinoal moment, i asked for her back and she said she couldnt and we both cried and said our goodbyes for the last time. her reason was that she just didnt want a boyfriend she wanted to be independent and wanted to grow some more and see what was out there. so we agreed that we wouldn't talk anymore and communication needed to hault. i was devastated. so that same night she texted me asking me if i was still alive, and i called her back asking her what that meant and she said she wanted to make sure that i was ok...and i said yes, and she said ok then and thats that and we hung up...the next day she called and i picked up and i asked her what she wanted, and she said she just wanted to hear my voice. and i said ok then is that all? and she said ya then i said ok bye n i hung up. Then the next night she called again but i didnt pick up....i was just sick of it and i couldnt take it anymore she keeps hurting me (or at least thats how i see it) she called again at 5 in the morning the next day and i didnt pick up....then she called 2 hours later and i couldnt take it nemore i picked up...and she said....i just wanted to make sure your ok you wouldnt pick up my calls. And i told her to just leave me alone and she said alright and thats that.... We didnt talk and she didnt call for about 3 days until i finally gave up and i couldnt take it and i just called her....i told her i needed to talk to her and that i need her in my life...and just recently i saw some pictures of her having a blast and partying and hugging some guy that was kissing her on the cheek. Ok now....im sorry to put you through all that reading.. but im just full on desperate and really depressed....i dont do much i just go to school and back....and ive talked to people and everyone tells me the same thing...to get over it and i dont need her. i need something more in depth, i want her back really badly...and im sure there has to be a way....so please either give me something to work with or give me something to get over it because i have no idea what to do and im really REALLY Depressed...thanks. please help as i want her back i want her to call back begging i need some reassurement or a reality check on whats really happeneing...please give me some advice...i really need it thanks
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