what do I do....

[Guest]

I posted just!!!!! read the other day and really need to talk to someone who has gone through what I am going through!!! I am haveing a panic attack today and I am not sure where to began. I am so stuck in the position I am in. I run our office and do not collect a pay check because the money we have comming in is money we put together to pay all our bills. if I just leave there goes the company and my child support which then I will really be stuck.

 

if I tell him to leave then there goes the only service tech that is runng the calls and the busness stops. I have all the animals that I dont know what to do with but I feel like I need to get away, you know some time to think about some things. would anyone stay in the marrage if he got some help??? some serious help??? what do I do???? can I ever get over this?? how could I ever be with him again,not that we had sex that often and to find out this is be going on for at least five years.

 

he put our daughter at risk. if it was found by the law they could have taken my daughter. I am a good mother. she is the one and only thing keeping me here. I have to servive for her. I know some women would say they would walk right away and so did I but when it actually happen to me I am just so confused.I never would have thought in my worst nightmare this would have ever happened. he blames me for being fat that is why he said he had them.

 

I weight 160 and 10 pounds of that is boobs. I could say you know it is me if it were women but these were kids. I lost weight I droped to 120lbs and he was doing it then to. I have done everything and given up everything just to try to please him and this is waht I find.I am in a state of panic because it is all becomming so real to me. every time I close my eye I see the images in my head of the little girls. not only that I have reverted to the fact when it was done to me. please help me and give some insite. I am scared to get some counseling cause if I go and say waht has happened they will take away what matters to me the most my baby girl. she is 5 and knows nothing but I know today she feels my panic.

 

I have taken a zanix to calm my nerves but I dont think it is working. my credit is not that good well all the bills I owe is paid in full but some were late. so there goes getting a loan to get out. plus they ask for income tax which we have but it is the both of us in joint. how and what do I do???where do I start. my mind is going 90miles a min. and because I think to do this I hit a brick wall and then try that a brick wall and so and so forth.

[No Way]

I am amazed no one had any thing to say to you. Hopefully you check in.

First: Get your girl away from this sick pervert. You know what its like and how you DON'T TELL when its happening to you.

Seconed: He knew you were broken from the first time he met you. These sociopaths choose women who have been victomised because they are easiest to control. He knew you wouldnt take action upon discovering his true sick sick life.

Third: Run for your life. Run for her life. And by all means do not tell him what you are doing.

 

The child can NOT be taken from you unless you are molesting her. Child Porn is illegal. Call the cops but only when you and your baby girl are hidden.

 

If you are running his operation - you have very valuable skills that you can be paid for elsewhare. Ha he even knew he could use your tallents and not pay you.

 

Look- child porn is looked at and used by child molesters. Its time to quit making excuses for not doing the only right thing and get your little girl to safety. A battered Womens shelter may be a place to start. Yellow Pages have all kinds of help lines and you need need need help RIGHT NOW.

Get a grip and don't be frightened anymore. Be smart about how to do this. Make plans to leave when there is no chance he will find out. Delete this site after you visit so he wont see.

[No Way]

Just going over your post once more. Stop all your rationale. The aweful way he makes you see yourself was easy. you are so broken that it seems you are protecting him from being found out.

It almost looks like you know about some little girls he molested. Any action you dont take makes you as guilty as he is. You are helping him find his next victom. You are makeing sure he has an easy cover for his peversions. Husband and Father.

Your credit is not shot due to some late payments. Those arnt even reported.

But you are so afraid to be a grown woman thats one reason you give for not doing anything. Use social services to get out. Go to the police now before the time delay will make you look guilty.