2 time breaking up and have lied to her is she done with me for good....

[bhobel]

My partner was 2 years older than me and had been in a bad marriage and went through a bad divorce for 2 years. She has in the past gone to see her ex husband and still talks to him every month or so, which i have always respected. We had been going out for almost 2 years.

 

About 5 months into our relationship I moved in, first time ever living with someone I loved, I was having issues which led to us having issues, which led to trust issues with her, and her thinking I was going behind her back. It then led to a break up for 2 months and we got back together. This time around I had my own place and really made a conscious effort to work on these things. She has always been very busy, busy to the poing where she had to be stern about spending time with me.

 

Also the second time around, I was very cautious about my actions in the relationship just to make sure I did not mess anything up. But we both had gotten very busy and our time spent together was little, and our commuication was a little off, but stuff we could have worked out, but things she thinks we could not have worked out because of the past. She is 29, and just starting her undergraduate work and figuring out what she wants. I am 27, in grad school and taking a slow approach to my living, and she feels I dont have any ambition except my relationship with her. She feels I drop everything for her, everything I like to do.

 

So recently we broke up again, and told me she wants to date other people and have freedom, it was hard to hear that but I understand. So the other night, i was at a friends house right by her house and after I left I drove by her house and she had another guy over already, 2 weeks ago we broke up. I talked to her on the phone today because I needed to get somethng from her house, and I started accusing her of this other guy and she caught me in a lie of where I was and how I saw her, so now she thinks I was stalking her. when I was just going to go see her at her house.. I dont know if she ever wants to talk to me again and i know she does not want to get back together right know if ever.

 

 

I am more concentrating on being her friend more than anything cause I have stuff I need to take care of myself. I am just wondering why she is already seeing another guy, is she just confused is she done with me forever, we had a close close close relationship and loved each other very much, I never wanted to hurt her, i am just having alot of anxiety and confused with her decisions and her route to go about this.

 

She felt that I needed to get my self together, and that she did not want to treat me like crap anymore. I did not feel like she was treating me like ****, our communication was a little off and thats all. I am so hurt and I want her to be happy and I understand that she wants to date other people and have freedom, but I am wondering if she will ever come back or ever want to be my friend. I know I cant read what she is thinking and only she can decide, I am just wondering if anyone has been in this situation. Sorry a little confusing and maybe I should ust move on. the no contact has been issued but neither of us have really followed it. I think we both have **** to figure out and will meet up at a later date down the road but I am not counting on that. if anyone could help that would be great thank you