Guest Posted October 20, 2006 Posted October 20, 2006 Well after 3 weeks of thinkin I had a chance to fix it, tongiht she called cuz we were supposed to go to the movies as friends. She told me how she "lost the spark" and thought we were only good friends anyway. I kind of blame myself cuz we dated almost 4 months and barely ever messed around. I dunno I just wanted to respect her and not push things. We never met each others parents. All i heard from her was how much she liked me, and how perfect my arms were to cuddle with, and that she just wanted to trap me in her apartment forever. 3 weeks apart and she loses the spark. She said how she just doesnt see herself in a relationship with me. Even tho 3 weeks ago i was told by her that she was "Very lucky to have me" I wanted to go out with class, so I left things go, wrote an email about how I wouldnt give up the last few months for anything, and was thinking of leaving it at that. Part of me tho just wants to **** her off, i have a lot of stuff on her that I held back that I think I can use, but I want to take the high road. I hate to blame myself, but there were "boyfriend things" i didnt do that I think i should have. I was kind of standoffish cuz of a bad breakup before, and just wanted to take things slow. Apparently that made her feel we were ntohing more than friends. I mean, just over 3 months together and the most we did was make out. We messed around alittle more once, but I never made a move. So that probably made her feel like we were just friends. Cuz I went 3 months and never tried to sleep with her. Im almost embarrassed by that. I had this beautiful girl, that tons of guys like, and I did nothing more than make out with her to the point it made her realize this was nothing more than friends. I almost felt better, like a weight lifted and I knew the straight answer, but I know i'll miss her. She is a very pretty girl that gets hit on constantly, and the images of guy after guy trying to pick her up will haunt me. I had a girl that tons and tons of guys want and will want, and I blew it. A couple weeks ago she was going to drive so far out of her way on a work night to see me, now she lost the spark. I hate it. Sorry, just wanted to vent my feelings.
neci Posted October 21, 2006 Posted October 21, 2006 Thats rough man... You just wanted to respect her and take it slow and you get this... Life just sucks sometimes huh? Not sure what to say really. Maybie its worth talking to her about it, but that might just make it worse I suppose. It will be harder in the long run if you try and reconcile and fail. I had kinda the same problem in the past, I dont like the feeling im forcing myself onto somebody, its never become a real problem as usually in the heat of the moment you can tell when the feeling is mutual. Im just saying I can see where you are comming from not wanting to rush things... Dont feel embaressed about it, its not worth it. If you made a mistake by not taking things further it sounds like it was for the right reasons.
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