Guest Posted October 20, 2006 Posted October 20, 2006 I am engaged to a great and beautiful man, but I love another man, and truly believe yet another is my soul mate. I don't think I could live without my fiance, we tried for a month, and something brought us back together again. During our time apart I was going out with the person I believe to be my soul mate, and hanging out with the other guy, who I used to be engaged to (he was my first). Somehow I ended up back with my current fiance, mostly because the timing was wrong with the guy I think is my soul mate (we have had an ongoing relationship where we just can't seem to be at the same place at the same time). Through all of this I was still talking to the other guy. He has and I think will always be in my life, since he is like my best friend, and I can tell him everything. My fiance has been really busy lately with work and school (he's trying to finish up his major). I felt unappreciated and ignored. I turned to the other guy and did something that I am not proud of. What really gets me though, is that I don't feel as guilty as I think I should. I was raised knowing that it was wrong and a sin that was one of the few that are close to being unforgivable. I still love him, and I'm madly in love with my fiancee, and still in the back of my mind I have a feeling that I am meant to be with the guy I feel is my soul mate. I am just so confused. I let myself get in the situation, and I have asked for forgiveness, but I don't think I have forgiven myself for letting it happen. I feel that I should feel worse about the situation than I do. Lord, I just want to have it all be right. I haven't talked to the guy I think is my soul mate for almost a year, ever since I got back with my current fiance. I've talked to the guy that I cheated with (who is like my best friend) and we've agreed that it is not a good idea to continue this way, since I'm going crazy trying to figure out why I don't feel as guilty as I should. I'm just confused as heck.
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