Guest Posted October 16, 2006 Posted October 16, 2006 I just recently broke up with the love of my life. Its been VERY tough. I got very drunk on Friday night and filled up my bathtub with hot water, and started sharpening a knife....... I think i passed out after i was finished sharpening it. I was seriously thinking of ending it all. Over the loss of my love.. Crap i am a mess.
jen_jen_heartbroken Posted October 17, 2006 Posted October 17, 2006 Please....if you are considering harming yourself in any way, then please call your doctor as soon as possible. If you are unable to reach him/her, then call 1-800-784-2433 to speak with a suicide crisis counselor. I have been where you are, and I know the terrible pain of grief and loss all too well. But please know that there is a light outside of the darkness, and that no matter how hard it is to believe this now, the pain will diminish with time. And one day your heart will mend enough to allow yourself to love and be loved again. I know it sounds cliche, but it's true: suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. This pain you are feeling is temporary...so let's focus on a temporary solution. You have suffered a very painful loss -- I don't want to play down that fact -- but this doesn't mean that you don't deserve love, because you do. And the first thing that you must do for yourself is to love yourself enough to take care of your own well-being, because you deserve that and you owe that to yourself. When we suffer loss and go through the grieving process there are actual chemical changes in the brain, just as there are chemical changes when we are in the midst of falling in love. It's important to recognize that for some people who are pre-disposed to depression these chemical changes can trigger depressive episodes because the brain cannot adjust properly to the imbalance of these sudden changes. If you are feeling depressed to the point of self-harm or are unable to function well enough to handle the other day-to-day activities of your life, then you need to talk to a physician -- and possibly start a round of medication and therapy which will help you cope with the emotions you are feeling. Please know that there are people here who can help you get through this mourning process and who can empathize with you. Stay in touch and let us know how you are doing. (((hugs)))
everlong Posted October 17, 2006 Posted October 17, 2006 omg..u really have to think of it differently ok... look at it this way...how hard was it to do that? really tough eh? think about how couragous and strong you had to be to do that? that is a strentgth! celebrate it - because you probably did so for a good, right reason - flip that thought upside down positive vibes cominggggggggggggg at ya
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