chocolate_boy Posted October 15, 2006 Posted October 15, 2006 Ok guys, I know many people will think I'm an absolute idiot for posting this and I feel stupid, but I am really worried. I've had many failed relationships and heartache over the years, at least two of my breakups have been played through with help from people on this site in the last 4 years. Now I've been with my current GF since May, and everything is just perfect.. out of all the relationships I've had she is the most perfect person I could imagine, really smart, sensitive, talented, we work in the same industry and have loads in common, my family adore her.. not to mention she is absolutely stunningly beautiful ;-) She's also not just my girlfriend, she is my best friend now. She is a few years younger than me, she's 20 and i'm 25, and I know that these years can be volitile for females. We just got back from our first vacation together last week which was amazing and I realised I have fallen for this girl hard.. I have been engaged before but I love this girl more than I have ever felt for anyone in my life. She returns all these feelings, she just stares at me smiling telling me she's never been happier, and she thought she was in love in the past but now realises it wasn't, and I'm her first true love and it feels amazing. We have a slight distance in that we live in different cities but it's only an hour away so we do see each other most weekends and day or two mid week which is perfect. She has had her heart set on working abroad for years and is making steps to do that, she told me she doesn't want her feelings for me to hold her back but she fears they will.. I told her I'd never stop her, infact I'd make her follow out her dreams, heck I like the idea of going abroad myself, I'd go with her if she did! So I don't really have a problem, apart from I am so scared of this going wrong.. i've had so many breakups that have torn me apart, and I've never felt this much in love before, if this went wrong I don't know how I'd cope. I know it's stupid and self-defeatist attitude, just I'm so used to relationships failing, and I couldn't imagine my life without her now... luckily she feels the same so I suppose I should relax and go with it... I know I've got it good, but how can I stop this sickly feeling in my heart that fears this could end? Its awful.
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