addison78 Posted October 13, 2006 Posted October 13, 2006 2 weeks ago my best friend called me up and invited me out for a drink. Nothing unusual there. I met up with him and some of his mates and i invited some of my (female) friends down too. After everyone had left he and i decided to have a night cap before going back to his place. (Not unusual - there is a spare room for when driving is not an option). Anyway, we eventually get back to his place - i did notice he was being xtra nice, by this stage i was very drunk and he was well on the way. For some reason we got into a stupid arguement about me driving.. as if i would have, this resulted in him say 'come to bed' and me ignoring him and heading for the spare room. I collapsed into bed - still fully clothed and in he came with a glass of water. Next thing were holding hands, im apologising for being nasty and then the unexpected happened. He went to say goodnight but he kissed me on the lips. This has never happened b4. I pushed him away and said 'what are you doing? He said he didnt know and asked he what i wanted him to do. He then kissed me again and told me he wanted to make love to me... and that he loved me. i pushed him away (not because i wanted to but bc this guy is in a long term relationship). A very weird one that i never did understand. Eventually it all got too much and we slept together. It was drunken but pretty amazing, weird, i dont know. In the morning when i woke up in his bed (with a terrible headache...) i attempted to make a quick get away, not that i really wanted to, i was just scared his girlfriend might decide to pop in. Yeah right at that time of the morning. Anyway, the thing is it happened again that morning, twice b4 i got out of there. I initiated catching up with him after he said hed call and he didnt. Since then we have had two 'catch ups' that have mostly resulted in us acting like it didnt happen. He said there was always a question mark between us. Him saying he was confused about his girlfriend, 'he doesnt want to marry her, move in with her' etc. and me not saying how i really felt. I have never been in an experience like this b4. I feel like i cant tell him how i feel because im scared and bc of this girlfriend, on the other hand if he really wanted me, wouldnt he have done something by now? I havent heard from him this week which is unusual, I am worried about him, and us. What should i do? This whole experience has brought up emotiions i thought i pushed away a long time ago, now they are back.
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