Author Lostgurl Posted October 21, 2006 Author Posted October 21, 2006 Lostgurl is all still going ok? Hope so! Hi Ssheena How are you doing? Great i hope Well things aren't going AS good as they were, we are still together, but i upset him yesterday while we were chatting. He asked me to send something through snail mail cuz his email was down. I told him i'd send it to hotmail. He said it wasn't working. I kept telling him that it couldn't have been hotmail, and insisting that it would work though hotmail. He got really mad and accused me of doubting him.... All i was doing was trying to help, seeing as i am pretty good with computers and can usually solve problems relating to them.He was very upset with me thinking that i was doubting him and not believing him. I'm not sure that itwas that though b/c he said he was jealous that i was having a party that night, and he wanted to party.... Then after we sort of made up, (he was still hurt) he said he was going to go to a pub for a pint. I found this as peculiar, b/c he always used to say he'd only go to the bar for one thing.. that is to meet women. He'd never let me go to the bar, b/c he didn't like men hitting on me, (not that i care, i don't want anyone else) but he's insecure, and can't even stand the thought of other men wanting me. So i don't know it either, he was really going to the bar for a. To just get out of the house or b. to actually look for a woman to pick up or c. he was trying to push my buttons. I don't think that it's b. but it's what he told me.... that he only goes to bars for one thing, and that they aren't for taken men! I think maybe he just either needed to get out and have fun, b/c he promised me he'd never touch another woman. I belive that. But it scares me b/c he has a weakness for attention. It's like a drug to him when another woman hits on him, he always has to tell me about like he's proud. He's shouldn't be though b/c he's soo handsome and sexy and has a certian sex appeal that drives women crazy, he should be used to it now. What if one night he gets too drunk and he's soo horney, from lack of sex, that something happens? Well, i never let it get to me. This is very uplifting for me, because when ever something like this would happen in the past, before i started working on my self, my anger would kick in and i would start presuming things and they'd come flying out of my mouth before i could do anything about it and it would BE ON! I held it this time and am proud! Its the first step i've taken towards my anger problem, its a baby step, but it's still progress . We haven't talked yet, it seems like it's been a while since we've chatted. Even though it's only been 24 hours. But ever since wen've gottin him setup on a messenger, we've been chatting from like 8:30 a.m until midnight on and off all day every day! Except for lastnight b/c of my party and today b/c of the little spiff. I guess i'll have to wait and see what happens. I'm sure that he just needs time to cool off. Well hope everything is well with you Ssheena ttyl.
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