mustangsally Posted October 11, 2006 Posted October 11, 2006 I really am not a person who likes to hate people. I never wanted to be one of those people who hates their ex. If none of this had ever happened, if we had simply broken up, I would have been fine with it and my life would have moved on. I feel kind of silly divulging this to people online, but for obvious reasons I can't talk to personal friends. About 1.5 years ago, I had been dating this guy I was madly in love with. He broke it off with me for no apparent reason...we were both each other's first real relationships, yadda yadda yadda. He called me a couple of times afterwards, telling my friends how beautiful he thought i was, etc., until he gave up entirely when i told him to go away. I was a little dramatic about the situation, but I resigned myself to it, sucked it up and apologized to him. I thought I'd never see him again. WRONG. About 8 months later, after living 500 miles away and sustaining a long distance relationship, he moved in right next door to me. Literally. Same building, everything. I offered an olive branch and asked if we could be friends. He said he wanted to. Months went by and he acted really, really weird. He'd stare at me, ignore me, I'd do nice things for him and he wouldn't even say thanks. So I gave up and asked him if he actually wanted to be friends. He told me "Its too difficult right now, but later." Later never happened. He continued his odd behavior, but not only that, he weasled his way into my social network. Several people told me he brought me up asking if people knew me, then proudly asserting that he was my ex. During this time, he kept staring at me, but refused to be my friend on myspace. He gradually charmed over everyone who saw me hurt and they all went from thinking he was an ******* to thinking he was god's gift to the earth. At parties he'd not talk with me, but indirectly find out what's been going on in my life. Finally, after all of this, I point blank asked him if he ever cared about me, because you don't act like this around someone you care about. He said yes and told me how much he used to love me. I thought it was closed as I graduated and moved. Now recently a tragic event has occured that will make us have to see each other once more. I refuse to talk to him now, after everything I've done and he hasn't bothered to reciprocate...its as if he just wants me out of his life, but wants all of the friends I made first for himself. The last straw was when I e-mailed him recently for an address I needed because of something big that happened. There was no personal message, simply that. No response. Now I log into my friend's photo albums and he's everywhere, even my very best friends who had seen me reduced to tears several times because of the way he treated me. Everyone LOVES him. I don't even have to try to look for him and I find him. He has a new girlfriend now, but is trying to hide it from me as on his online profile, that information is hidden only to me. His new girlfriend's roommate is a pledge in my old sorority, but since I barely graduated, this means they're all running around in the same crowd. He briefly dated a girl for a week last year and she used to be nice to me, but when they started being seen together, she was quite rude to me. I just can't explain all this anger. I try to let it go, but I can't. I get so hurt that he won't even speak to me, yet won't leave my life. I am not still in love with him, which is what people think when I try to explain this situation. I am angry at him for everything that happened 8 months post-break-up...not during or because of the breakup. I just wish he'd disappear. And I'm frustrated that I'm not with someone new....its been so long! I just want to meet someone!
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