i'm depressed, but can't speak up

[musicqueen1012]

Ok, everyone is worried about me. i say that i'm fine. but in my mind i'm saying i'm F.I.N.E (F**ked up, Insecure,Neurotic, and Emotional) my parents say i stopped doing alot of things i use to do and my boifriend said i changed. i took this test, not one of those make up things, like from a really professional web site. it said that i might have mild depression. Even if i do have it, how to cure it? i can't tell nobody, i'm too scared...... You know wat... i am depressed. i got caught cutting my wrist. i did it only a month ago, and everytime something go wrong...i keep thinking about that... i don't want to admit i'm not ok, but this aien;t wokring out either

[steve1977]

Hey you slow right down ok, and listen very carefullly. For a start cutting is very common in depression so dont you going thinking you are some sort of freak because you are not, its NORMAL ok......I am also glad to hear you say yer depression is mild because that is a good sign as is the fact that you are on here sharing yer problem.

 

Just stop all the self harm and spend a bit of time on this site reading about other people. You are not alone ok, please reply to this and let me know how you are now, am worried about you x

[norajane]

Your parents love you; that's why they ask how you are and have told you they've noticed a change. So has your boyfriend. There's no shame in admitting that you may be depressed and need some help. Open up to your family and tell them what's going on. They care about you and want to help you. If you've cut yourself, you aren't going to be able to deal with this on your own, so ask for their help in finding a professional psychiatrist who can help you.

 

Good luck to you.

[laRubiaBonita]

go to a psychatrist talk about whatever, they are usually good at seeing BS, if you decide to spout Nothing off.

i was/ am a selfmutilater... and seriously anti-d's help take the edge off.

 

i am guessing you are younger... late teens, really early 20's? i think it is the hardest then. there are all these pressures to be an "adult" and be responsible, figure out what you "Will do with Your Life"...... all that.

 

if nothing else, instead of cutting, go to a field, mountain, desert.. what ever and scream and cry at the top of your lungs.... beat the dirt with a stick until you are too exhasted to barely move, It's a great release!

just take care of your body, even thougfh YOU are madly in love with you, there are SOOOOO many other people(some you don't even know about) That DOO!

 

[Guest]

The cutting is a way of speaking up. Listen to your body. You can get through this. Go to a doc or counsellor and say you can't talk but you know you are messed up. I bet you need anti-anxiety and anti-depressant meds. Once you've been on them a while you might be better able to figure out what's up, what's bothering you. It's hard to think, let alone talk, when you are in a fog.

 

If the first person you go to doesn't respond, please try again. Unfortunately there are a lot of so-called professionals who have no clue about these kinds of problems. (A friend's husband is one of these clueless doctors who tells people who finally have guts to raise how they feel that it's "natural" to feel sad. Unfortunately, there's very little accountability in the medical profession. So it's really important to be persistent--which is of course tough for someone who's depressed!) If you are a woman and broke try going to a clinic like planned parenthood. Or someplace with a nurse practitioner--they tend to listen and take people more seriously than do many docs.

 

If someone tells you that it's just a phase they are a moron. Even people who care about you and mean well--friends, family, etc...--might steer you wrong. YOu need professional help. It doesn't mean you belong in a mental hospital or will be on medication for life. Don't freak out. Just get help. The sooner you start this the easier it will be to get better.