How Do I Get Over This

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Ok Now I Have Tryed Soo Hard To Get Over This One Guy That I Had Dated For A Little Over 2 Years When I First Stared Dateing Him He Was A Nice Guy But I Just Got Out Of Another Long Relationship And I Realy Didint Like Him All That Much Like A Boyfriend Well Time Went On And I Realy Fell For Him And It Was Just Him Hes Not That Good Looking Or Any Thing Special But I Realy Did Care For Him Alot About A Year In To The Realtion Ship I Moved From Ny To Va And We Still Dated And He Would Visit Me And Vise Versa Then About 6 Months Later I Moved Back To Be With Him And Moved In But He Had Changed So Much And I Could Not Take The Way He Would Treat Me And Talk Down To Me So I Left But Even With Me Leaveing And Cuting It Off I Still Want To Cry When I Think About Him About 3 Months After We Split And I Moved Back I Am Ok At Times But When I Think About Random Things That Jog My Memorie Of Him It Kills Me I Just Want To Crawl Out Of My Skin And I Realy Do Try To Keep Busy But I Realy Did See Us Togeather For A Very Long Time I Mean Our Wedding Was Supose To Be Oct 19 Of Next Year Its Hard To Lie In Bed Every Night Alone And Think About What I Did Wrong Or What He Did Wrong And I Normaly End Up In Tears Or Mad And We Dont Talk Any More Witch Some Times I Do Think Its For The Better But I Realy Cant Stand It When I Think Of Him Being With Any One Elts I Mean At This Point I Dont See Him In My Future But I Dont See Anyone Other Than Him Either And I Realy Dont Know What To Do I Mean It Realy Hurts And I Have To Go Day In And Day Out Knowing That I Will Never Talk To Him Again Even If After All That Happend I Shouldint Even Want To I Just Want To Stop The Memories Of This Whole Thing With My Other Realtion Ship I Would Get Over It By Makeing New Ones With Another Person But I Dont Want To Depend On A Guy To Make Me Happy For The Rest Of My Life So Could Some One Please Tell Me How To Fix This