emmaUK Posted October 2, 2006 Posted October 2, 2006 i have this problem that is really getting on my nerves now. every time i get with someone i really realyl like..... then my head does everything it can to try and ruin it by putting me off them... and most of the time .. it works. i get put off by the slightests little thing which wouldnt bother everyone else. its like im just waiting to see one thing i dont like n then i start thinkin about it loads n thinkin about how much i hate that... when in every other area they are great and if it wasnt for my own silly head replaying what i hate over n over .. then i probably wudnt go off them at all. it stops me from being able to be totaly in love with someone which is annoying and it happens with every guy i start to get serious with. i have recently got back with my ex and he has been really lovly since the fresh start n i could really fall for him big time if it wasnt for me replaying certain little things in my head....... for instance... theres this guy he talks to who is a total bull*****er, he really does talk out his backside n tries to make out he is some cool producer (he really isnt, its all lies), he goes on about all these girls that want him, how he's got 3 on the go, he sais about this fight he had or how he smashed this persons face in etc, he tries to talk using all these ghetto words that jus dont suit him n make him sound like a stupid wannabe idiot. do u get the picture? now this guy does not effect our relationship at all, but i get annoyed coz i think... well why the F would my bf even wanna talk to someone like that, my Bf is not like that at all and even laughs to me about some of the bull***t that this guy comes out with. he jus said this guy is funny and thats why he dont care that he's a bit of a twat. but for some reason it is jsut really putting me off my BF coz i think he can do better then choose to talk 2 someone like that n choose people who he can have intelligent convos with rather then havta listen to someone chattin utter crap. if i am talking to someone and i start to notice lies and bull***t and if they r trying so hard to make themselves look something better then they are.... i just lock them off straight away coz i have no time for people like that , i dont need people like that in my life... jus good honest genuine people. so it puts me off that he dont mind associating with people who feel the need to be fake. do u get me?? but the guy doesnt really effect our relationship at all apart from me winding myself up about my BF being friendly with him (also i worry that someone of his idiotic ways will rub off on my bf) so that is an example of what sort of things put me off someone.. its such a minor thing but my head makes it out to be something huge... and i think about it n get knots in my stomach where i get so wound up bout it. i try n just focus on the good things, but the way i feel about the things i dont like is such an intense feeling it sort of over rides any good feelings why do u think i do this with such minor things?? why do i do everything i can to put myself off someone that things could be really good with?? ahhhhhhhhhh its p****ng me off
Walk Posted October 2, 2006 Posted October 2, 2006 Uhm... maybe you have some control issues? or... Lack the life experience to understand that all people do not make the same choices, and knowing that it isn't a "bad" thing, only different. You may be caught in the mentality that since you view things a certain way, then all others should view it the same? or.. You feel insecure and are attempting to distance yourself in order not to be hurt? You feel threatened by the BS'er because you're worried your bf will start pulling that on you. And it would end up hurting you. Not sure why you do this... maybe you could explain how you feel about whatever it is that is bothering you? Angry, hurt, jealous, afraid, depressed? Maybe others on here have a better idea of what's going on....
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