Gunny376 Posted September 22, 2006 Posted September 22, 2006 One of those nights! One of those "If I'd knew nights" One of those crying nights. One of those hurting nights! One of those OMG nights!
CrushedOrgans Posted September 22, 2006 Posted September 22, 2006 geez. i'm sorry. just wanted to let you know someone heard you.
Author Gunny376 Posted September 22, 2006 Author Posted September 22, 2006 Thanks! I'm battle-hardened! It doesn't mean a thing! Just a momentary weakness! But, God U I loved her so! Thank you, though!
Adunaphel Posted September 22, 2006 Posted September 22, 2006 Sorry that you are feeling so bad. Love can be quite a bitch. Expecially love for exes. I just hope that "those nights" are becoming more and more rare.
PWSX3 Posted September 22, 2006 Posted September 22, 2006 Thanks! I'm battle-hardened! It doesn't mean a thing! Just a momentary weakness! But, God U I loved her so! Thank you, though! No it just shows you still have feelings and I think it's good to have feelings. I could be wrong but to me it also shows you still have a good heart.
dgiirl Posted September 22, 2006 Posted September 22, 2006 Dont you just hate when those emotions sneak up behind you, tap you on the shoulder and there you are, crying all over again? Blah. I just chalk it up to pms. Maybe it's pms, gunny?
DieselPWR Posted September 22, 2006 Posted September 22, 2006 Gunny, Just shows your human; you show me the toughest, battle-hardened guy, and there will be some weakness somewhere. I had one of those days myself, although my wounds are much newer. God bless you, Marine. Someone out there will be lucky to have such a strong, centered mature guy.
flowerpot Posted September 22, 2006 Posted September 22, 2006 Hey Gunny I feel for ya man, Just to let yoy know it's not in vain. You have helped keep me sane. Your trials that you have shared with me have helpd me in my situation to keep me strong. God bless,FP
Author Gunny376 Posted September 22, 2006 Author Posted September 22, 2006 Friday, 22 Sept 06 1. No more going on vacation, drinking, setting around looking at old photos, videos while listening to old songs from back in the day. 2. Box same up and put way back in the attic.
Plato1969 Posted September 22, 2006 Posted September 22, 2006 Hang in there Gunny...you'll be back to that familiar pillar of strength before you know it.
Mz. Pixie Posted September 22, 2006 Posted September 22, 2006 Friday, 22 Sept 06 1. No more going on vacation, drinking, setting around looking at old photos, videos while listening to old songs from back in the day. 2. Box same up and put way back in the attic. Words to live by. I saved my pictures and stuff for my kids and have them put away. I also made my husband save pictures of his ex and stuff for his son. But it would be good to get it all in the attic. You're a special guy Gunny and your wife was nuts to leave you!
tonyp56 Posted September 23, 2006 Posted September 23, 2006 Well, I'm still going through all this crap. My wife left September 8th 05--for someone else, who moved in with her and my kids less than 2 weeks later! I gave up my half of the tax return so that 1) pay more child support, 2) she could go get a lawyer and get the divorce going. She got the money in February, but she only "talked" to a lawyer who hadn't called her back in April. Come May, she decides to tell me that the payment for the van that was financed in both of our names--and she took the van when she left me--was more than a month late, and she was thinking of "letting it go back". Of course, I took it back and decided to try to pay the payments; I figured I could at least try. But I had enough, I wanted our divorce over with, I was tired of having to pay--already got negative mark on credit because of her not even asking me for help with the payment. So I went in and I hired a lawyer, and within 1 week the ball was rolling. Long story short, I go in front of a judge Thursday September 28th for my final court date. Not that I am not happy to finally get this over with, it just brought up all kinds of feelings that I long thought were gone. I knew that I loved her--likely always will, even if she don't, I said "I'll love u forever" not I will love you as long as you love me, but all the remorse and regret and the ifs, has made my life a living hell. I keep thinking of the end result though, this will finally be put behind me and I'll be able to move on. We have three kids, and we've worked everything out as far as they are concerned. I pay child support and I have them 122 nights out of the year. I have even got to go to birthday parties at her house. However, I think as long as our failed marriage hangs over our heads it will be a wedge between us. Once our divorce is over, I think it will lift a weight off of both of our shoulders, and allow us to get along even better. Our kids deserve that, and I will do everything I can to make it happen. But for now, I guess these feelings are here to stay for awhile. And, yeah, I gave her what I thought was ALL of the pictures of her. But a couple of months ago, I found some more, and well long story short , I had to stick them right back where I found them--I couldn't look. But I’m still at the point of seeing or smelling something that she liked and it reminding me of her.
CryingCanuck Posted September 23, 2006 Posted September 23, 2006 Guns, I don't know what you're feeling buddy, your pain must be so hard after all these years. All I can say is that you have been here for so many of us, and I guess it's now your time all over again. Loneliness sucks buddy, but in the end it helps us to think about the past, where we've been, what we've done and what we'll do differently in the future. You're living proof that simply moving on doesn't always equate to being happier or more fulfilled all the time..... I mean, I bet more often that not, to not letting the past run our lives. At times, I too realize that I will get over my situation, but I am a better person for having met you and others here and I have you as solice and so you should also in your time of sadness. Remember that song of the 60's "Lean on me" Your in my thoughts today my friend. CC
Author Gunny376 Posted September 23, 2006 Author Posted September 23, 2006 Thanks everyone for the comments and support Got all the boxes locked back up the trunks, and back in the attic. Including the one in the backside of my mind. To be honest, you don't ever "get over it", (although you do get over them), because its a part of you, and will always be a part of you ~ forever the rest of your life. I just went somewhere I knew better than to go. Back to that "place and time." Don't ask me why? That an a fifth of Candian Whiskey and listening to C&W music didn't help much either! Thanks again~ Once again proof of the fine folks here at LS
PWSX3 Posted September 23, 2006 Posted September 23, 2006 listening to C&W music didn't help much either! Mental note to self from Gunny!!!!! I knew that C&W music wasn't any good
CryingCanuck Posted September 24, 2006 Posted September 24, 2006 That Cunuck Sutff gets em all the time... You should though, try the real stuff. Whatever Canadian Whiskey you buy in the States my friend has been "blended" to meet US alcohol laws, The stuff you buy here under the same name is ohh so much smoother and much OLDER........ Crown Royal and Ginger is my Fav but I will never say no to a Canadian Club either. I have upstairs, 10 full albums of "our pictures" haven;t gone through them yet, thinking I or my HEX would do that whenever the house sells and we dispose of the stuff. Guess I'l leave it up to her eh? So many good, great, beautiful memories caught on film.... Sort of makes you wonder WHY oh WHY did it have to end.... Glad to see you're feeling better Bud, Have a good night... CC Hey I just realized something, Crying Canuck aka CC is one of my favorite rye's Canadian Club...... nawwwwwwww couldn;t be why I chose that handle.
ilmw Posted September 24, 2006 Posted September 24, 2006 What the heck... I go away and this happens... Just kidding...and in very poor taste... I feel for you bud... I can only imagine what it was like... for you. I noticed the mention of CC... I had a moment like this just before my trip... got ripped with DW's uncle.. and all the crap and hurt and sadness came flodding to the surface... luckly he is discreet and will not mention it to his neice. Booze is bad... when there are so many surpressed... thought to be forgotten feelings... Your strong... and know what you have to do... ilmw
shine_like_love Posted September 24, 2006 Posted September 24, 2006 i hope that you are feeling better, everytime your let your guard down one of them nights seems to sneak right up on ya and bite you in the ass! thats what i think always happens to me. not to mention, i am stupid enough to watch the notebook at 2am by myself. trust me if you haven't seen it don't do it!! its a really well made movie just not for the newly separated/divorced. i cried for about an hour and a half after the movie was over!! not to mention through the whole thing!!! by the way gunny, thanks for the advice on my post. i think i am going to need to just get some more boxes and throw his stuff in the basement!
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