Teacher's Pet Posted September 30, 2006 Posted September 30, 2006 OK, so I had this break-through this afternoon that I am completely wasting my time on someone who will never commit to me. Suddenly once I was aware that he is not type of guy I want to be with in the future anyway, then I wasn't upset anymore that the FWB girl with be there this weekend. I told him the realizations I had. ...and the process of healing begins. Your friends are here for you. Always. Much love. -tp
Author Mollyanna Posted September 30, 2006 Author Posted September 30, 2006 this is the hard part, I know. Why do I waste so much time on lost causes?? my last 3 boyfriends, ALL lost causes. All of them told me they were not ready for a serious relationship. 2 out of the 3 married the VERY next person they dated after me (one of them the one he cheated on me with!). I'm the primer I suppose. I swear if D marries one of these two girls I will LOSE IT!
Author Mollyanna Posted October 2, 2006 Author Posted October 2, 2006 why am i on vacation on a beach, thinking about D? And wondering why he hasn't called me back. He called while I was on the plane yesterday - wishing me a safe trip. He told me to call him back. I did - 24 hours ago - and haven't heard back from him. All i do is look at that damn phone. I am trying not to do this to myself on my vacation, but it makes me so sad... knowing he is too busy playing with that damn FWB to call me back!
Ariadne Posted October 2, 2006 Posted October 2, 2006 Hey Mollyanna, why am i on vacation on a beach, thinking about D? Where are you? Ariadne
Author Mollyanna Posted October 2, 2006 Author Posted October 2, 2006 Hawaii. How can I be sad in Hawaii? I thought this was what I needed. I am thinking now that I should never talk to him again. Let him call me in a few days and I will not answer. Let him try to call me when I get back home and I will not answer. Let him come to my house and I will not answer. blah - i know I don't have the willpower to last longer than a week or two.
Ariadne Posted October 2, 2006 Posted October 2, 2006 Hey, Hawaii. How can I be sad in Hawaii? I thought this was what I needed. Wow, how fancy! Cool. Beautiful. Did you go by yourself? I am thinking now that I should never talk to him again. Let him call me in a few days and I will not answer. Sigh... find some cute guy there at the bar. Make it your purpose. Besides, you like to drink . blah - i know I don't have the willpower to last longer than a week or two. Yeah, me neither. I went to see the Arab guy today and he was in jail! Haha for the past two days (I thought he was fired). The home security took him and he had to pay to get out. Ariadne
Author Mollyanna Posted October 2, 2006 Author Posted October 2, 2006 No. I took my Mom. She has always wanted to go. Thought I would do something nice for her. Too bad I am such awful company. I am trying to have fun but NOTHING is really any fun right now. I feel so dead inside. I don't want to meet someone here. The last thing I need is another fling. I want something real, something committed, something that will lead to a future. Girl, leave the Arab guy ALONE. PLEASE.
Teacher's Pet Posted October 2, 2006 Posted October 2, 2006 I don't want to meet someone here. The last thing I need is another fling. Dammit... I have just the thing to cheer you up. Too bad I can't find the video for me to send you :( Next time we chat, I'll have to describe it to you. Guaranteed smile. And no, it's not porn. But I could be "creative" in the description if I have to be. LOL Anything for that smile... -tp always the cutie
Ariadne Posted October 2, 2006 Posted October 2, 2006 Hey, No. I took my Mom. She has always wanted to go. Thought I would do something nice for her. Oh, that's wonderful. That sounds like a lot of fun to me. Awww... I am trying to have fun but NOTHING is really any fun right now. I feel so dead inside. Yeah, I know the feeling. Blah. I don't want to meet someone here. The last thing I need is another fling. I want something real, something committed, something that will lead to a future. Well, with your mom now is another story. Just do the mom things, pool and talk and stuff. Does she know about D? Girl, leave the Arab.. Yeha yeah, but we are still friends. Is not like I'm going to avoid the liquor. Enjoy the trip, Ariadne
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