Lonelystar Posted September 19, 2006 Posted September 19, 2006 When it is finally over you have to just let go. He told me he loved me and wanted me but couldn't be with me. I don't know why people say things like that. If you really love someone and want them you do whatever it takes to be with them. I was willing to sacrifice so much, but he didn't care. I made a mistake in the relationship earlier, and he said he had forgave me but kept bringin it up everytime me fought, and told me that was eventually the reason why he couldn't be with me. I didn't cheat on him or anything but lied about something I shouldn't have, but at that time my head wasn't clear. I have said sorry a million times for it but it isn't good enough for him. How can someone leave you so quickly after 5 years. It just amazes me how he can shut off his feelings for me so quickly, or maybe he lied to me all these 5 years and never really loved me. I feel so lost and confused. I am so hurt. I know eventually I will get better, but it is hard losing your first love. Sorry for blabbing. Any comments how you guys get through your days, months, and even years would be helpful. I don;t know how to get better. My heart feels like it has been ripped out.
Josalina Posted September 19, 2006 Posted September 19, 2006 everyone makes mistakes, how long ago did you make it? as he shouldnt hold that against u if he has already forgiven u. it is hard, i know, just take care of u, if it is meant to be he will come back, but don't wait around for him, get out there and ahow him what he is doing, my best advice is give him nc that way he will miss u more then poss contact u.
Author Lonelystar Posted September 19, 2006 Author Posted September 19, 2006 I made a mistake earlier into the relationship. When he first started going out. It was 5 years ago and I was 16 then. I was a teenager and didn't really mean to lie, but it happend. Since then I have grown up but it doesn't matter to him. He still uses that and it kills me inside. I am not going to wait around, but it kills me inside. He was all I ever knew, and now he is gone. I am scared to go back to the real world, or even try to start dating. I guess thats what happens when you are with someone so long. I just wonder how someone can say they love you so much one minute, and then not want you the next. I wish I could shut of my emotions so easily.
mike440 Posted September 19, 2006 Posted September 19, 2006 I was dating a woman for 6 months that I knew for several years brfore....she was also able to let go very easily. The only thing that will heal it is time. Little by little you'll start to feel better, then probably feel bad again, then better, until the feeling bad times eventuall go away.....time is your friend on these things.
Author Lonelystar Posted September 19, 2006 Author Posted September 19, 2006 I am sorry about that. Some people let go so easily and it makes me wonder if they really cared in the first place. I wish I could go could magically make time go by faster, so I was at that point where I didn't feel so bad anymore.
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