MSserious Posted September 9, 2006 Posted September 9, 2006 THANKS FOR THE FEEDBACK YOU GUYS! --i thought about it, i don't think i'll be sending it anymore. i'll try to finally move on. karma will get him right? ======= Names have been changed; just in case ======= This is out of the blue isn’t it? Why only now when I had all that time to say whatever I needed to say? Like your excuse before, I had too much **** to deal with at the time that I didn’t want anything to do with you. After three or so months here it is, my response. I’m partly done talking **** about you and cursing you and your actions and playing your promises in my head. But you see, time has a pretty brutal way of smacking me in the face from time to time, and I don’t think I can keep anything about you inside me anymore. If you don’t know already, you are super ****ed up. You should know why, but let me remind you again. You knew I still loved you. And what did you do? You ****in played with my feelings and led me the **** on! I bet if Ed never forced you to talk to me you would have left me hanging… like always. You know if I meant anything to you, even as a friend you would have done something to let me know even if I wasn’t back on the island. Perhaps a ****in email to read when I got back or a 5 minute long distance phone call to say “Hey May, I’m sorry but I didn’t choose you. Please enjoy your vacation and get over me as soon as possible.” But I guess you never did have the balls to let me know sooner. That would have helped Nik! Maybe if you did something to let me know, maybe just maybe I won’t HATE you soo much. YES I ****IN HATE YOU! And I absolutely mean the word HATE this time! You know I was soo excited to get back the first day I was there? You know I was excited to have you come over and finally get that chance to have a decent talk with my parents? Did you know my mom said yes? And my dad just wanted an assurance from you? You know I told my whole family about you? I spoke about you so many times with the most important figures in my life telling them of how great you were and that despite everything...you wanted US to work out. I was grateful because finally after that whole time, things were working out. I was doing something about US and it didn’t matter how late it was because YOU UNDERSTOOD ME, well…that’s what you made me think. You don’t remember understanding my feelings on this subject? You cried remember? When you “apologized” for not knowing and clinged to me and told me you still loved me? Yeah, that time I went to your house because you were complaining about your back and I helped you out. - - - - - That day at Ed's when we supposedly “talked” I hardly said anything because I was so overwhelmed and I didn’t know what to feel. But you know, I was laughing inside my head because you sounded and looked like an *******. You seemed so calm and acted so tough and I thought you were pathetic. You have no idea how insincere you sounded. That’s why when you offered friendship I didn’t want it. I didn’t ****in want anything dealing with you because if you were a friend and or LOVED me, you wouldn’t have ****ed around with my feelings like that. You’re always ****ing my feelings over because of your incompetence to figure out what the **** you want. You always knew I’d be there so over and over you’d come back and act sincere then destroy my trust. This time it just wasn’t about trust and love it was about respect. You made me feel so little, I felt so disrespected. You DISRESPECTED ME Nik! You have no idea how it felt to hear whatever you told me. “I chose her, I don’t know… I just couldn’t let her go. BUT I DO STILL LOVE YOU!”. You’re full of BULL**** Nik! I’ve beaten myself up too much because of you. From lying to myself and denying my feelings until now and blaming myself for all that’s happened. You’re so ****in unfair because you always leave me with your ****in trash, you leave me with the guilt and hurt that you should be going through. Just because you had two people waiting on you and loving you, gave you no right to **** around with emotions like that. You know you didn’t only **** around with my feelings but with Ann's. You didn’t only ruin my trust but implanted something that would betray her trust and hurt her. You know, for a smart girl like her, she deserves much better than you, much much better. You absolutely have no idea how it feels. You ****in don’t.
My_Other_I Posted September 9, 2006 Posted September 9, 2006 Absolutely do not send it. It's for you, but who cares about him. Show him that you don't give rats ass and just ignore him. Much better than sending a letter that will show your psychotic side. It will make him wonder what's going on
Guest Posted September 9, 2006 Posted September 9, 2006 My god how i felt like sending a letter like that to my EX, some people will say DONT SEND IT, i say **** to that, do whatever YOU want to do, get some of that pressure of your chest, send it! i hate all these people that say "move on" or " he is not worth it" send the ****ing letter !
Rooster_DAR Posted September 9, 2006 Posted September 9, 2006 This is a good step for moving on (the anger), but don't send the letter. You are only going to give them the power to realize that hurt you and they will read it and laugh. Don't do it!
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